Poems by Mel

✨Thoughts✨

Whatever shit inside me grows
Pure darkness it is, fucking impossible to stop
Dead inside but people constantly telling me that everyone has their lows
With or without time, expecting me to reach the top

Life itself is too much and hella too rough
No energy nor patience do I have left to even try
Just being alive is torture enough
Oh well, all I could do for now is lie
Better it will definitely get, they say, but truth is, it won't, I'm not strong nor tough enough
Truth is, I can't help, but crave to die

The voice inside me, commanding me to keep drowning
Bossing me around, constantly talking shit about my family, friends and me
This monstrous weight I badly want to burn
Rather I'd die than keep hearing horrifying shit about my loved ones
Myself I don't mind, it crosses the limit when talking about them
Repeatedly telling it to shut up, is like injecting even more intrusive thoughts, it's best if I just shut up

No diamond, no gold, no money and generally nothing at all
Replace cannot the precious secret in my constantly bleeding heart
The treasure within my heart, so precious and loved
The most valuable treasure hides underneath it all
Wrapped in chains secured as fuck, with a matching key and lock
What's so precious you must wonder or you may not
That's for me to know and you to find out

Anywhere near my heart you won't get, watch out for all the necessary traps, I don't give a fuck if it doesn't make any sense

Love and pain is all I see, especially with those rose colored glasses of mine, I won't be able to see a single thing
The only blessing is for sure to be lucky enough to be surrounded by the precious existence of my family and friends

The perfect melody in every song, my heart and soul, my treasure, they are my absolute everything

- Mel Rose