Heartbroken and depressed
I sit on the floor
Listening to songs
That I downloaded
Oh man
How I wish I was numb forever
Then I couldn't feel this awful pain
Guilt and shame
But that's not how things work here
Unfortunately
Feelings and thoughts
Are permanent shit
Trust me when I say this
That feelings and thoughts
Destroy everything
The bad kind anyways
I'm way ahead of everyone
I no longer need to search
For a solution
Cause I got one already
Found too many pills
While I was looking for something else
It's like the universe wants me
To overdose and die
Now I have a collection of pills
I know
I'm a danger to myself and even others
I got them hidden well
Wherever I go
Ambulances I see, everywhere
Once again
The universe wants me gone
If these signals aren't obvious enough
I don't know what is
I guess I'm not meant to be here
I'm the odd one out
Probably therefore the universe
Is trying to get rid of my existence
It's better this way
Good for all my loved ones
At least
They don't have to deal with shit
Like me
Anymore
I really hope that I got enough pills
To overdose
Again
For the third time
Y'know what they say
Third time's a charm
Maybe I'll succeed
Maybe not...
- Mel Rose
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Poems by Mel
PoetryOnly poems: Love, thoughts, sadness, struggles, family, friendship, shit and eventually more feelings. Hope you like them ♥️
