Janet's POV (I know, I know, Hush.)
I stared at myself; fixing any little flyaways that made my hair stand.
I was satisfied with how I looked. I didn't look perfect but I looked decent. I picked out a simple dress and heels and topped it with a necklace my mother gave me. Every second was me staring in the mirror and second guessing everything.
Was I weak? Why was I giving him so many chances? Why did I rush myself with him? Why did I even go to the grocery store that day. I was doing better off not knowing Lesane but now he has me overthinking every second I can get. Making me feel like I'm weak...or my backbone is missing. Like I "need" a man.
I have all these chances where the women in my life can talk me out of this but, I know I'm gonna ignore it. Do I see a change in him? Hell, do I even know him?
Deeply sighing, I just grabbed my purse and a jacket. I really hope this night goes by smooth and we can finally get where we need to be. I do want something with him but I don't wanna play "puppy love".
I turned off my lights and those same bright headlights pierced through my blind.
I opened the door and begin walking out. My nerves were all over the place. Why? I had no idea..this isn't the first time I've been out with him.
He got out and walked over to open the door for me. We didn't even say a word to each other. Just small smiles. Was he nervous?
He got in and began driving. This was weird. He was just quiet. The only noise was the radio at a low volume. No eye contact just silence.
The drive was lengthy and the least enjoyable. I was hoping he'd say something but it was nothing. Did I do something? I was trying to think back on the conversation earlier but we barely said anything there.
I looked at him as he backed into the parking spot. He didn't seem like something was wrong; he just looked rested...
He got out and opened the door for me. I stepped out and he grabbed my hand.
We walked inside and got seated. It was fancy..
We just looked at the menus, still not saying one word. It was starting to eat me apart.
"You been here before?" He finally said something. The amount of relief from just that little sentence..
"No. Where'd you hear about it?" I asked him, "One of my homies told me about it," He told me as he looked over the menu, "I thought maybe we could go somewhere up your speed."
"What does that supposed to me?" I lifted my eyebrow. He just looked at me, "You know what I mean."
"I don't. Please elaborate." I asked as I picked up the menu up again. He still didn't say anything.
"You don't gotta lie, J. I know you won't used to that whole drive-in thing. But my money just won't right at that time." He spoke. I took a moment to look at him, "Is that what you think of me?" I asked. He shook his head, "Nah. I just think you have high standards." He shrugged. Rolling my eyes, I looked back down at the menu.
Between the time of the waitress taking our requests and getting our food, we didn't say anything. The table was quiet.
"So this is it? You not gonna say shit? I'm not gonna keep starting the conversations." He broke my thoughts. Truth be told, I didn't know what to talk about.
