Meanwhile, Lesane was packing boxes up and thinking about Janet.
He thought about her every second. While he was working, eating...showering. She ran across his mind every moment.
"Baby!" He heard the voice he wanted to hear. He got up off the floor and jogged into the kitchen where she was sitting her stuff down. He was smiling from ear to ear.
"Wassup Babygirl." He leaned in for a kiss but Janet moved past him; leaving him in a pause of confusion. He followed her into the bedroom, "Damn, what's up with you?"
"I just had a really stressful day. Nothing you did." Janet shrugged as she kicked her heels off. Lesane started to read her. Trying to see if there was anything he could touch on but he felt a blur. He couldn't put his finger on it but usually he could.
"Aight, I give up. What's up?" He sat beside her and listened to her take a deep sigh before speaking, "Lesane, have you ever just wanted to...leave?" She asked. Lesane thought for a second, "Who hasn't? Shit, I wanna leave all this shit behind but it ain't that easy."
"I know...that's the stressful part." Her soft voice mellowed and became flooded with sadness and stress.
"Shit, I wish we could just leave." Lesane sighed.
"You always say We...don't you wanna just go by yourself?" Janet asked. Lesane didn't say anything for a moment.
"Why would I wanna go by myself if I got someone I can ride with?" He asked.
Those words alone created an even bigger soft spot within Janet. She just knew he had the right words for every situation and she didn't know if it was threatening or healthy for her.
"So that's it? You good now?" He asked but she still didn't say anything making Lesane think there was something else she wasn't telling him.
"Lesane, I haven't even made appointments...this still feels new to me even though it's my second child. What if they have to go through what Aliegha went through? Constant fighting, yelling, crying..." She began to grow overwhelmed with emotions before she could finish, "I've even been looking at pamphlets..."
Those words alone made Lesane looks at her with a cold look, "Pamphlets? The hell you mean pamphlets?" His voice slowly rose after every word.
"Abortion...it's just a —"
"Come on J, you not gonna kill my child." He shook his head with a scoff. Janet looked at him with tears pooling her eyes and a are you serious look, "Please tell me you're kidding right now? Kill YOUR child???"
"What else is abortion Janet!?" He yelled making her jump.
Janet couldn't help but think about the day she'd had. The lingering anger that still invaded within her after the encounter with Monica was just enough to tear Lesane apart too.
"Now wait a minute, who the hell do you think you're raising your voice at?! I've sat here and stayed with your sorry ass after you pity and run to your other bitches! The other times I could've just left your ass in the dust—but I didn't! And you wanna sit here and belittle me because of a choice that I wanted to possibly make?" The pain that invaded her voice made her realize, she was tired. Tired of playing tug of war. She was tired of it all.
"Why am I even talking? Wasting my breath on a sorry ass man? You got that." She nodded and stood up, walking out of the bedroom. Lesane followed close behind her.
"Where the hell you going?" He asked as soon as he saw her pick her things up and wrapped her hand around the door knob. She looked at him, "I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired Lesane. When I left Malcolm, I promised myself I wasn't gonna have another man walk over me like I'm a piece of nothing and I'll be damned if I let you do it." She walked out the door and refused to even look back at Lesane's silhouette in the doorway.
No second thoughts invaded her mind as she got into her car and drove off.
Lesane could only think.
I lost her.
An end to a new beginning.
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Well, there goes. Bet y'all thought i was gonna write like 10 more chapters...I wanted to cram her graduation but I thought that should wait...but, we finally finished! 🥲 honestly, this ending got me lowkey mad and I wrote it like who does he think he is? 🤨 his funky self...
As I said a couple chapter before, please don't change your views on anyone that is mentioned in this story or what is mentioned in this story.
THIS IS FICTION AND NOT MY VIEWS. I just do the writing, y'all just do the reading. 💗
Thank y'all so much for everything. All the voting, the comments that I do get, the loveeeee 💗 it's really appreciated...appreciated enough to make another book....😉 we'll see, we'll see...but seriously, writing this book was really fun and interesting for myself honestly. Hopefully the next book will be planned out better because this is really all over the place.
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