Tzuyu Imagines (gxg)

regrets (requested)

You stared up at the ceiling, deep in your thoughts as your mind wandered.

You tried your hardest to block out the sound of the snores coming from the girl beside you and the reminders that continue to rush through your brain that this bed you're lying in is much too cold and much too unfamiliar.

It wasn't yours or Tzuyu's.

It belonged to the girl you met just a few weeks ago after your breakup with Tzuyu. You've tried your hardest to move on. You've seen Tzuyu return to all the projects that the group has to do and she seems to be pretty happy these days.

She seems happy while you're lying awake at night, wishing she was holding onto you.

You pushed away the blankets and got up out of your girlfriend's bed. You took a deep breath and prepared to leave the girl you thought might be able to heal your broken heart.

But it was beyond her mending. She was so sweet, so kind, and you thought you had some pretty great chemistry at first.

But you know, deep in your heart, that you're just not ready to love again. You're not ready to move on from Tzuyu. You don't know you'll ever be and this girl deserves so much better than someone who has yet to move on.

It seems to be inescapable; the pain you feel without Tzuyu by your side and you can't move on.

So you grabbed a pen and wrote her a note, trying to give her the best explanation you could and let her down easy.

You told her how truly sorry you were and this just wouldn't work out because you just can't be with someone else right now. You wished her nothing but the best, hoping all those things she's opened up to you about over the time you've gotten to know each other would come true for her.

She deserved it.

You sighed and put on your shoes before grabbing your things and leaving her house to go back home.

The sun was just starting to rise when you arrived. It was only a little after six in the morning and you knew you needed to drag yourself up to the bed and try to get some sleep.

But this house doesn't feel like home to you anymore. It hasn't since you and Tzuyu broke up.

You miss her. Everything reminds you of her and it's difficult to carry on with your life without her when your world revolved around her.

She was the greatest thing to ever happen to you and it's your fault you broke up.

The distance and time spent apart were a little overwhelming.

But you knew, deep down, that it was worth it because she was still your girl. You had everything you ever needed just knowing you have her.

Now, you feel lost. You feel empty. It's like she's taken all the music and all the happiness you once felt. You don't find happiness in much anymore.

You just drown in your regret as you cry and wish every night that you could change that night and take back your stupid decision.

You tried to make it to bed. You really did. But that bed was once the bed she used to hold you in and you wondered if you might just sleep better on the sofa until your heart healed.

You laid down there and closed your eyes, but you couldn't help but think about her. You reached for your phone and went to your contacts. She was still there, her name still saved as your emergency contact and all. She was still on your phone as 'my girl'.

You can't bring yourself to change it, even though she's not your girl anymore.

You didn't think she'd answer. It is six in the morning after all. She's probably either busy or sleeping, like a sensible person.