Seventeen Imagines III

#96 "Cheating Is Not A Big Deal" (part 6)

When my boyfriend, Jeonghan, kissed me, I couldn't resist it. I let him entered my mouth, sharing his warmth by thrusting his tongue in and out. After we pulled by and opened our dreamy eyes, I found myself longing for his lips again and he granted it. We went for almost 10 minutes...No. Maybe 30 minutes of kissing non-stop. Our kiss went deep as time passed and if not for the students who walked near our place, he maybe done something more than what we did.

Somehow... I liked it.

It's very interesting since it wasn't our first but I was nervous as hell. Until now that I am reminiscing each moments, my heart thumps loudly inside my chest. I thought it was only because we did it while we're in bad terms. But soon, I accepted that it was really because of the things he said before he kissed me.

[In this relationship, I am the bad one. When you saw me kissed another woman, you should kill me right away. When I introduced you those girls I used to make you jealous, you should curse me with all your might. And also, if I'll do this after everything I've done, you should push me away.]

He clearly gave me a permission to hate him. But he also...

[But even if you hate me, don't go. Don't leave me.]

With tears in his eyes, he desperately begged me to stay.

When I realized that I have a crush on Minghao, who isn't my man, I felt bad for Jeonghan. And that's why I asked him to break up with me. I really believe that woman isn't allowed to have feelings for multiple guys, while it's okay for men to date different girls at the same time. But do I really need to blame my old culture? Should I always use that excuse? Then if I have, why am I not happy? Why does it feel empty?

"Is it true?! I heard the news about what happened between you, Jeonghan, the rich looking b*tch he brought and the awesome guy you had lunch with," Micah, a friend, exclaimed as soon as I went inside the room and sat down. As if her voice has the power to attract people, tons of eyes diverted to our direction.

Since we did made a spectacle scene yesterday at the canteen, we drew lot of attention which probably the reason why everyone has curios look in their eyes while staring at me.

"You like Minghao so you asked Jeonghan to break up with you but it turned out that the b*tch that Jeonghan brought is Minghao's fiancee. Then Minghao is just flirting with you so Jeonghan got jealous and he didn't allow you to break up with him?!" Joeli flung a question in a bolting speed, she didn't breathe in the middle of talking.

The fact that I like Minghao to Junibelle being his fiancee are the truths. But I guessed people already made different stories so the ending came weird. Minghao wasn't flirting. But for Jeonghan to get jealous, I don't have any idea.

I, who always answer bluntly, shut my mouth in front of my friends. Since I have bad histories of being the center of attraction, I hid my wet palms under the desk.

But I can't blame anyone. Since yesterday's incident is because I failed on hiding my feelings. Again, it was my fault.

"Excuse me, is this the Jaica room?" a man broke the momentum of the heavy silence. Some sighed because he interfered right at the moment I opened my lips.

However, no one complained because of his good looks. He has small face, tanned skin, pointed nose and broad shoulder. Plus, he's manly from head to toe.

"Yes this is Jaica room. So go away. We were talking something important," Micah, who loves beautiful men, shooed him. She's the only one who didn't look back so she didn't saw his face. While Joeli, on the other side, stared at the nameless man as if drools rushing down from her opened mouth.