All the magic (OUAT Peter Pan)

Chapter 14: What a day

Jacob was waiting outside for her when she got there. He took a curious look at the car as he got inside. "Who's car is this?" Amelia rolled her eyes at him. "It's my car. A while after you left last night I got a gift from Matt. It was the keys with a note saying 'I am sorry for yelling at you. I have been meaning to give this to you and now seemed like a good time. Love Matt.' and now I have a new car. Ready to go to the hospital for the last time?"

"So you and Mr. Gold get into a fight and he gets you a car? I wish my dad did that. I am ready for you to be done with that place. Do you feel better? I know you said you cleaned yourself up after but did it feel better to have someone professionally look at it?"

Amelia pulled out of his driveway and started down to the hospital. "It's weird. You're hooked up to a bunch of things you don't know what they do. You can't really do anything. I've dealt with that for gosh I don't even remember how long. I would always clean up Friday and Saturday afternoons. I would make sure I was all good when I was with Henry. Then I would make sure I did my homework on Sunday. That was my pattern."

"Can I ask you something?" Jacob asked her, sounding nervous. "Sure what's up?" he glanced over at her. "Why didn't you tell me? How would you not tell me? I could have helped you. I have replayed that moment in my head a million times. You didn't even flinch when he stuck the knife into your side. I want to know everything. I know you have a bit of a hard time trusting me sometimes and I hate it. Why don't you trust me, Amelia?"

She parked the car in the hospital parking lot. They walked out of the car and they sat down on the hood of her car. She turned to look at him. "I do trust you Jacob. It's just a bit hard to talk about. Do you really want to know everything? I can tell you everything but you have to swear not to do anything crazy." She looked at the clouds passing by the setting sun.

"Tell me everything." he placed his hand on her trying to give her strength to talk about it. She held on tight to his hand as she looked out at the sky unaware he was looking at her eyes.

"The first time I recall it happening was the day I called the Evil Four out for the stupid nickname of 'mealworm'. After we got to English Kelly and Paige took me to the bathroom. They yelled at me for calling there boyfriends dumb and then gave me a little scratch." her fingers absentmindedly moved over the scar. "Sometimes it was Kelly and Paige doing it in the girls bathroom. Sometimes the boys took me to the janitors closet. Most of the time it was all of them cornering me after school. Except for the first time it was always on a Friday. Some times when the guys did it they would say really terrible things. They knew everything I hated about myself and used it to hurt me almost as much with the knife. It gave me really bad nightmares. Almost every night I would walk up in a cold sweat, shaking, crying, or screaming. Matt never heard because my bedroom is in the basement of the shop. He sleeps in the rooms above the shop. The nightmares were always the same. Sometimes the dreams were them stabbing me, or Matt, or Henry, or you. The other dream was a black storm surrounding me, cutting me up and ripping away everything I know. The storm covered everyone I care about, making you guys hate me. Then you guys would say things you know would eat me up from the inside."

Amelia took a shaky breath feeling extremely exposed now that he knew. Jacob slid over closer to her and wrapped his arms around her. "Amelia, if I had known how bad that was I wouldn't have kept asking you to tell me. I am so so so sorry you had to go through that. If there is ever anything at all I can do for you, just let me know."

She placed her head on her shoulder not caring about the tears rolling down her face. "You already have helped so much without knowing it. You gave me rides, getting me away from them. You would always come to see me. You were alright with being my best friends even when you knew I was keeping a secret from you. You have now twice in the last two days let me have a melt down." Jacob and Amelia pulled away. She whipped her tears away with her long sleeves. "Now let's get my stuff so we get get some food."