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When the evening came, I went back home. Sobrang nakakapagod. I don't know what to do, I feel so alone. I wish I have Andrea here, but I know that it's impossible. But I can't help it, I miss her so much. Andrea did a lot of things for me, and I don't know how will I ever repay her.
Naisip ko rin kung kamusta na kaya siya sa trabaho niya, I hope that she's happy. For sure, she's going to be successful, masipag siya at pursigido.
"So basically, your own family hates you that much? That, they're hunting for you?" Ariana asked. I told her the whole try when she went to my house at this late hour. Nag aalala kasi siya dahil hindi ako nakapasok sa trabaho. After everything that has happened.
Tumango ako sa kaniya. Looking down. Everything is happening so fast, the police chasing, my conversation with Nathan, and the part where we completely let go of each other. It's just so hard to absorb all of it at once, it makes me feel exhausted.
"Please don't tell anyone, Ariana. I tried to hide this for years, I suffered so much. It's a hard life, but I'm trying to make it right. I just need time, so, bare with me. Please?" I asked her. Ariana is a famous person, a lot of people know her. And if this information scatters, it will be easier for the police to catch me. Sobrang hirap tiisin.
"Of course, I know who to trust," she said with assurance. I hugged her tight. I think this is the thing that I need right now.
"But, how are you going to work? You're working with different people, most of them are famous. You will be there when they're attending different occasions, people will see you and some might recognize you. How will you handle that?" she asked. Sa totoo lang Ariana, hindi ko rin alam. Hindi ko alam bakit eto ang pinasok ko. Sa dami ng maaaring aralin, eto pa talaga ang pinili ko.
I can sacrifice my own dream and passion for the sake of my safety, and the people around me. I feel so selfish, that I chose myself over my love ones. Pinilit kong tuparin ang pangarap ko kahit alam kong ikakapahamak ng nakararami, kahit alam kong may mga magsasakripisyo, kahit alam kong may mga madadamay.
"Ariana, I feel so selfish," I whispered. Trying so hard not to cry, I was pulling myself together, I don't want a single tear to fall out of my eyes. I feel so weak, and that I'm a coward.
She went closer to me, and put her hand in my shoulders to help calm me down.
