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We went back to the company after our short vacation. Nathan and I also had a short catch up with each other's lives. Naintindihan naman 'yon ni Andrea. She spent a lot of time with Matthew too. We were happy there. It felt like we're in a paradise. I had the best time with Nathan. I missed him so much, to be honest. Because, I really want him to the bone. That song matches my love for him so much.
But, my problems are still here. They aren't solved yet. My life won't be at peace unless I fix everything. Nathan told me that he'll help me with everything. Just like what he used to do, he always saves me. But I don't want to be a burden, kikilos pa rin ako. Of course, I should make an action.
We were talking about that yesterday. Kaya napapaisip ako ngayon. Should I really do it? It's the right thing to do, but...Is this the right time?
"What if...Sumuko na ako?" tanong ko sa kaniya. Nasa likod ko siya at yakap yakap ako habang sabay naming pinapanood ang sunset dito sa beach at tinatampisaw ang mga paa namin sa tubig. He's silent, but he's assuring me that he's listening to everything that I say.
"Nakakapagod na kasi. I'm so tired of running, hiding and living with this kind of life. I hate the fact that I'm the victim but I'm the one who's going to approach them for an apology, but...It's the right thing right?" nakasandal lang ako sa kaniya. Inaantok na at pagod, but I want to talk to him. He's just brushing my hair with his hands.
"There's nothing wrong with doing the right thing. Of course I support your decision, love. If that's the thing that will make you feel at ease. But I won't let you do it alone, your life isn't in a stable situation right now because of everything that's happening. I'm going to help you." he answered. I held onto his arms and closed my eyes. A smile formed on my lips. It wasn't a wrong move to give him the second chance he truly deserves. I'm happy that he's with me. And I'm even happier because I know that I will be with him forever.
Nangingiti ako habang nagpipicture sa model ko. As I remember what happened yesterday, it makes me happy. Ganadong ganado tuloy ako magtrabaho. Parang tanga nga kanina, naghuhugas lang ako ng plato tapos nangingiti pa ako. Kakaiba na ata 'to.
"You're doing excellent today, Ms. Vila," puri sa 'kin ng manager namin. Nag bow naman ako sa kaniya at nagpasalamat. Itinuloy ko na rin ang trabaho ko. Nakakasampung model na ako kaagad sa loob ng dalawang oras. Ewan ko ba pero ang sipag ko ngayon. I'm so so so weird today. I mean, we didn't plan a date or something, but I'm happy as fuck today. Also, I'm so energetic. Hindi rin naman ako nadiligan kagabi.
