things i'll never say out loud

at that moment.

it was at the dining table

I realized that you were so significant

that even the people I loved the most

knew about your existence

wondered about you

your whereabouts and how you've been

it was at that moment

I realized how much I've intertwined your being

in the string of my words for so long

that even my beloveds treat your name

as a part of my vocabulary

I did not even recognize

- g.b.