"What we have to lose"

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With a breathtaking view over the Monaco Harbour we enjoyed the evening. Being with them makes me feel good. They feel like being my best friends already. I work around 6 weeks for Red Bull by now but it feels like years. The boys accepted me from the beginning and we get along so well. I'm just happy...I finally arrived where I belong.
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It's was the middle of the night when we arrived back home. We said our goodnights and I walked into my apartment. I threw on my pajamas and laid into bed. Before finally falling asleep I send a goodnight message to the boys and thanked them for the day.
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The rest of the week went as usual, appointments with the drivers, going to the gym and cooking. It's Tuesday again which means we fly to Baku tomorrow. I used up all of the food in my fridge so it won't go bad while I'm away. I packed my suitcase, looked through my personal belongings to check if I have anything.

- incoming FaceTime call from Blair -
"Hey Girl, I'm so happy to see you again tomorrow." she screamed. I smiled big and replied "Girl I missed you so much.". We talked about what we pack for the upcoming week since the weather in Baku will be on fire. I showed her the outfits and she showed hers. "We'll look so good on track." she said smirking. "Hell Yes." I replied.
"So any development with you and Daniel?" she asks all of a sudden. "What should develop between us?" I ask. "Are you dumb? Did you kiss, are you together already....if yes I'll be mad at you for not telling me." she asks. "I'm not, we're not dating and we haven't kissed, why does everyone think that?" I ask confused. "I told you I ship the two of you...everyone sees how well you would work out." she explained. "Possibly it'll work out but like I said first of all we work together and he's a a lot older than me." I told her. I know age is just a number and it's not too much of an age gap since I'm 21 and Daniel is 29. I still don't think about a relationship between us because we work together. If our relationship won't work out it'll be weird afterwards.
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After the phone call I spend a lot of thoughts on Blair's question. Max also asked me about Daniel and I never understood why. We work together and we became really close friends. Like I said I think it won't work out because we work together but why would he chose me anyways? He can have anyone, models, actresses whatever he wants. Why would he chose me in case the topic ever comes up?
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Today is our flight to Baku and I'm really excited. I finally see Blair again and of course the free practices, qualifying and the race itself is what I'm most excited about every time. I fell in love with formula 1 and even though it is tough sometimes I never fell out of love with my job. The boys and I took the private jet from Max since we can't fly with the team anymore. It was smaller, yet comfortable and luxurious. We got a variety of food and drinks and I felt kinda special that the boys took me with them.
The flight itself was relaxed and we had a lot of fun - as usual. That's always how it is when I'm with them.
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The weather in Baku was, as promised, bomb. After leaving the airport we drove to our hotel for check in. I got handed my keycard when I heard someone scream through the whole lobby behind me. "AMILIA." I could definitely tell it was Blair. I turned around and she jumped into my arms. We hugged and the whole lobby looked at us. "I'm so glad to see you again." I said. She nodded in agreement and walked with me to my room.
"So you were at the beach with Max and Daniel?" she asks, the typical smirk on her face and wiggly eyebrows. "Yes we were." I answered not trying to pay attention to what she means by bringing it up. "Girl what's wrong with you, you spend basically all of your time with these two, really handsome guys to be honest and you don't even think about it?" she asks confused as usual when we talk about it. "No I don't think about it." »that's a lie Amilia« "And if you find them so handsome go for it girl." I replied giving her a similar smirk. "No no I don't want to date one of them I just can't believe you ignore the fact that you live the dream of so many girls right now and don't even care." she explained. »Oh Girl I care and I certainly do not ignore it, I'm well aware of my situation...«. "I get what you want to tell me." I reply, falling back into my thoughts again.... Thanks for that Blair.
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