"What we have to lose"

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And when I thought I couldn't get any worse, it did. My parents had to go back to the Netherlands and Blair had to go back to Milton Keynes for work. Lando was able to stay two days longer but just as Max and Daniel need to go back to work. The summer break is over in a week and my health went down the hill, even though I thought we reached the bottom. It was exhausting me so much that I received my food over the IV constantly, I lost weight to a minimum that they were scared they break me if they touch me. I wasn't able to stand up, not even with help. Daniel changed my clothes and did everything possible while I laid in bed. At this point I was too weak to think about how much this has to bother him. Max helped him wherever he could and I can never thank them enough for what they do for me.
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I was tired all the time, oh I was so tired but I always reminded myself to keep fighting. Daniel sits next to me right now, holding my hand. I haven't moved in a few minutes so when I did, he jumped out of his chair. "Do you need anything princess?" he asks worried. I cleared my throat and grabbed his hand tighter. "Daniel i can't thank you enough for everything you've done for me but I'm just a phase in your life, don't waste all of your Time on me, you should live your Life." I said and nearly broke my own heart. But I remembered the quote that I once read. "If you love someone you set them free."
I felt the tears forming in my eyes. "What the hell are you Talking about?" he asks, the first tear rolling down his cheek. He grabbed both of my hands in his and placed them against his chest. "You Are not a Phase, You're a lifetime and I'll fight with you till the end." he said and we both just cried. His words meant so much to me.
And in that moment my heart ached, I've never felt more loved by anyone. His words gave me the strength to fight, for us, for him.
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Three summer break was over and I feared that day. It's Wednesday and Daniel and Max have to leave to Belgium today. I still felt bad but the doctors told me that I overcame the worst part of it. I still wasn't able to eat or stand up by myself or with help but I'm looking forward to it. "Ok we have to leave in about 30 minutes, I'll ask when Charlotte is coming." Daniel said and grabbed his phone. I'm so glad that Charlotte said she'd stay with me while Daniel and Max go to the races.
A knock on the door pulled me out of my thoughts, it was my doctor. And he smiled. "Ms Van Dijk I'm so glad to see you. I have amazing news for you. The latest blood results showed us that your body fights against the cancer and that, even though you might not see it yet, there is light at the end of the tunnel." I was so shocked by his words, he left me speechless. "That's amazing news." I said and saw Daniel and Max both smile bright. The doctor walked out of the room when I was crushed my Daniel and Max. " That's the best news I've heard in the post weeks." Max said. " Amilia, you'll make it, I'm so proud of you, please keep fighting, I'll come back whenever I don't have to race, just promise me, don't stop ok?" he asks and I nod.
"I never stopped fighting because of you....and you'd be lost without me because who would do your laundry?" I ask. I think I never heard them laugh harder that right now. "I think she is actually feeling better, I'm so happy you never changed, still our Amilia." Max said.
"Ehm.." Daniel started and I saw he was unsure what to say now because he was scratching the back of his neck. "I have to admit something to you." Daniel said. Ok that was unexpected, what's going on now? "I was always able to do my own laundry but I liked you from the beginning and thought this is my chance to get close to you." Daniel finished his sentence. He probably expected me to be angry at him but the second I started laughing, he relaxed. "Ily." I said still smiling. "Ily2" he responded and gave me a kiss.
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Charlotte arrived only 10 minutes later and it was now time for Max and Daniel to leave. I pulled Max into a hug and wished him good luck for the races. After that I hugged Daniel as well. "I fight here and you fight in your car for good results, promise?" I ask and he gave me his pinky promise. "Promise."
And then they left, I was now on my own. Fighting alone, without them here, but I wasn't really alone. I always carry them in my heart and on my wrist. I looked at the bracelet they gave to me and smiled.
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