"What we have to lose"

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Max finished the race in P2, the whole team was happy. I was happy as well, he deserves that after the fight he had with Lewis on track. Daniel walked past us after he had to retire and I decided to give him some space.
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We celebrated Max's win in the garage. "Is Daniel ok?" he asks. "I don't really know, he walked past us but it seems like he drove back to the hotel already. I'll talk to him when we go back." I answer. We took a lot of pictures with the whole team, everyone proudly presents Max. I feel bad for Daniel that they mainly focus on Max and I hope he'll find another team.
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Back in the hotel I walked to Daniel's room. I stand there for about 10 minutes, knocking on the door. "Daniel please open up." I say but he's not reacting. "Baby please." I hear myself say before I recognize. I barely call him that, I don't even know why. It worked because he opened the door but turned around and sat back on the floor again. I walk inside,closed the door behind me and sit down next to him. I have flashbacks from the last time that happened. He stared onto the ground again, not saying a single word. I pulled him into a hug but he still didn't move. "I'm here for you, you can always talk to me." I whisper. His head turns to me, tears escaping his eyes. I wash them away with my thumb. "Do you want to sit down in the bathtub?" I ask him. He nods and I get up and prepare it.
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He sat into the bathtub and I kneeled down next to him. He pulled his legs to his chest, placing his head on his knees. I washed his back and he calmed down a little. "I'll leave the team at the end of the season, I told Christian today." he says all of a sudden. "Do you already have another team in sight?" I ask. " Yes I'll Sign with Renault." he replies. "I hope you'll be happier, you deserve it." I say and smile at him. In return I receive a smile from him as well.
I stayed the night in his room, pulled him onto me for cuddles and brushed my fingers through his hair until I fell asleep.
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We stayed in the US because next week we attend the Mexican Grand Prix. Max and I managed to cheer up Daniel. We went on hikes in the Valleys, in California. Daniel had friends here as well and they helped a lot in the progress of gaining back his happiness.
On Wednesday in the race week, we arrive in Mexico. I joined their track walk and did their stretching sessions after that. I'm glad that my personal health seemed to improve. I didn't need another IV and felt pretty good overall.
"We'll go out tonight." Daniel said after the second free practice on Friday. I got pretty excited and asked him where we'll go. "Dinner at a beautiful restaurant and then we'll spend some time together...if you know what I mean." he explained and smirked at me. I was glad no one heard us.
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I took a shower, blow dried my hair and put on make up. I decided to be a little extra today and applied bright red lipstick. I chose a black dress and black heels. I looked at myself in the mirror and was a little shocked. I didn't notice that I got skinnier in the last few weeks. The dress that once fitted perfectly is now loose.
" Hey Princess you look beautiful." Daniel said when he picked me up. " Thank you handsome." I replied.

Daniel's POV:
I was overwhelmed by the way she looked. She never wore red lipstick and it suits her so much. I did see that she looks really skinny in her dress. A few weeks ago that dress fitted perfectly. I hope there is no serious reason for her weight loss.
The dinner was delicious and we are now on our way back to the hotel. We both had a few glasses of wine. I couldn't stop looking at her and was glad when we reached my room. I couldn't stop myself from kissing her and so did she. Through our night I felt and saw how skinny she got. Her collarbones never stood out that much, neither did her ribs. She already fell asleep and I pulled her closer to me, feeling her hipbones beneath my fingers.
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Amilia's POV:
I acted as if I haven't seen Daniel's looks. He had a worried look on his face when we looked at my collarbones and ribs. I know I got really skinny these last weeks but acted as if it's not too bad. I fell asleep in his arms and woke up because of the feeling of his fingers on my hips. He sighed and it seemed like he's really concerned. I can't hide it for a lot longer anymore...I'm still scared how he'll react.
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