Library Stranger 》A Lee Felix fanfic ✔

Chapter 28

"You really need to stop giving me heart attacks like that." I put my hand over my chest as I tried to calm my heart.

"Oopsie." Felix chuckled before dropping himself beside me.

"Couldn't sleep?" I asked, hugging myself as a cold breeze hit us.

"Yeah." He breathed out, a cloud of air leaving his mouth due to the cold atmosphere. He suddenly started fidgeting, looking here and there and it was obvious something was bothering him. I kept quiet because I thought I might invade his privacy. And then he let out a groan, before opening his jacket and draping it over my shoulders.

"I swear movies and dramas turned this into such a cliche move that it's embarrassing to do this now."

I was stunned, and my emotions went haywire as they couldn't decide if they should bubble up into laughter or a fuzzy warmth.

"T-thanks."

There was silence.

I remembered the look on his face when he asked me why I am ignoring his feelings.

"I...had an ex boyfriend." I started off, and I could see him turning his attention towards me from the corner of my eyes as he waited for me to keep going.

"I don't know if I can really call it dating. He was nice at first. A smooth talker. It was the first time I liked someone, someone I grew feelings for. We never met up that often after we started dating, it was always on text. Whenever we met up, it was always just him coming to the cafe, chatting over a cup of coffee and that would be it. But I still never gave up on him because I thought he was just busy and I convinced myself that its enough and I shouldn't ask more. He was two batches senior, graduated last year. He used to say he genuinely liked me. He insisted that I was special. I found myself believing him although he tried to hide our relationship from everyone. He had said he didn't want attention and I believed him because it was understandable. But later his texts turned so dry, and his excuses of being busy every single time didn't seem believable anymore. We used to walk home together on Tuesdays since he had judo classes and that judo place was in my block. So one day, on a Tuesday, he texted me between class saying he won't be able to join me because he got detention. I grew uneasy because he was nowhere to be seen after school hours for the whole week. So I went searching for him and I had to see with my own eyes that he really got detention so that I could ease the restlessness in my heart. Then I found him."

Pause.

"In one corner of the school. Making out with Sora."

His face fell, horror striking across it as his eyes widened. I turned my head towards him before laughing.

"Widen your eyes any more and they will pop out of their sockets."

He smiled a little. Just a little.

"The others don't know about this. I had told them we just didn't work out so we broke up. Oh, remember when I told you about when I found that place in the forest? It was the day I saw them."

Surprise flashed across his face for a split second, before nodding slowly as he fit the pieces together.

"And I am not trying to tell you that 'I have lost hope in love and relationships' or 'I am too heartbroken to catch feelings again', a big no because I have accepted that this is life. It's supposed to go down so that I get myself together and pull it back up. That's how you learn and grow. I want to tell you that I am not ignoring your feelings. It's just....holding me back a bit. I was reluctant."

I looked down as I fidgeted with the bracelet, the moonlight reflecting off the beads not failing to draw my gaze.

Silence.

A deafening silence.

I felt his gaze pierce into the side of my face as I looked down.

Then he shifted as he sat right infront of me, gently, with slight hesitation, held my hands in his and he looked deeply into my eyes as he spoke.

"He was a stupid guy who didn't know what he lost. He was too blind to see how beautiful you are, feel how beautiful you are, as a person whole. You deserve so much more and I am willing to show you. I want to show you."

I felt my heart pick up its pace, the coldness I felt moments ago now being replaced by the feeling of being embraced by a cozy warmth as my eyes found its way to the hearth of his eyes.

"I want to give you all of me. I want you to give me a chance. I am not asking you to be my girlfriend right away. I am asking you to give me a chance to show you that I genuinely like you, and I don't see anyone else in the way I see you, so let me make you feel special, feel you're loved. And you don't have to hold on to me if you are uncertain. You will be as free as a bird." He smiled at the last part, and I found myself smiling too.

My heart fluttered in my chest, the butterflies in my stomach coming to life with more energy than it ever had.

I knew that moment I could trust him.

I felt myself opening the door where I kept trying to suppress my feelings as I looked into his eyes, that drowned into mine.

There's no going back now.

So I didn't hesitate to push myself forward and closed the distance between us as I planted my lips on his.