The Darker Side of Me

Chapter 8: And the Truth Comes Out

"Ok next question; most embarrassing story you can think of," Logan said.

We had moved from sitting on the log, to me sitting on the ground and him laying down beside me with his head in my lap. I'd taken my ankle boots off and put them behind the log and the feel of the soft grass between my toes seemed to calm me. Logan was tracing signatures on my cast while I played with his hair with my other hand. We had started playing 21 questions and it had been quite fun actually. I'd learned that he was not a virgin, his first real kiss was with his second cousin in 8th grade, and that he once thought he had a gay crush on Hunter when he was 5 and a half. I also learned that Hunter lost most of his family at war and that he lived with him, his brother and his mom in the log house. I'd admitted that I was still a virgin, that if I were a lesbian my first celebrity choice would be Kelly Clarkson, that Sean was my first and so far only boyfriend and he was an ass, and that I've never been anywhere outside of the 2 states that my parents lived in.

"Most embarrassing story I can remember was when I was in grade 3 I used to watch Dora just to see if Diego was in the show and kiss the screen when he came on. My brother took a picture of it and now it's in a frame in my window sill at home," I answered honestly.

"That sucks," he chuckled.

I laughed along. "Yeah, it's also a sad reminder of how naïve I used to be. Ok my turn. How many girls have you shagged in your life?"

"Honestly, I think 2 in total, all of which I had a serious relationship with. But the last one hasn't been since freshman year."

"Huh, so you're not as bad ass as everyone thinks you are."

"Well, I guess it depends really. I mean yeah I smoke and drink and stuff, but as far as playing with girls hearts, I would never dream of it."

"Awwe, you're so sweet."

"Thanks. Ok, why did you leave your dad back in Ohio?"

Oh god. "Umm..."

"It's ok if you don't want to answer," he said sitting up and looking me in the eye.

"No it's ok, it's just I'm not sure how to explain it. He would... I..." I stuttered. I took a deep breath and let it out slowly. Just tell him straight up. "My father was abusive. My mom left him when I was 9 and he got custody of me. Recently he started taking away my moms visiting rights and she got pissed and went to court to win over my dad." My throat started to close up and I felt myself start to cry. He pulled me into him and I sobbed into his chest. "It's not like I wanted to leave him, but I needed to get away, for my own health and safety."

He started playing with a lock of my hair. "Do you feel better living here?"

"Yeah, and much safer. I never wanted to report him, but when my mom was about to lose all ways of contacting me, I had to tell the judge what was really going on behind closed doors."

"Well it's a good thing you told the truth. He should be going to jail for that."

"No," I said pulling away from him. "I couldn't see that happen to him. He may have hurt me physically and emotionally but in the end he's still my dad and I wasn't about to throw away his life."

"I understand," he said.

I looked up at him with glistening eyes and he gave me a reassuring smile. I smiled back weakly and looked down. He lifted my chin with his finger and wiped away the tears that had fallen.

"I'm sorry, god I feel like such a baby," I said with a small, but barely there chuckle.

"No, no don't worry about it. I know what it's like to lose someone like that. My aunt and I are extremely close and my uncle was abusive towards her. One day I saw him hit her and couldn't take it anymore. I ran over and started beating him. Once I figured that he'd learned his lesson, I let him go and he ran off. Never seen him since."

"I'm so sorry."

"Ah, it's no problem. But ever since then I've never had any tolerance whatsoever for any kind of abuse towards females of any age."

"Oh," was all I managed to spit out before his gaze locked with mine.

His enticing blue eyes seemed to flicker from my eyes to my lips and back again, holding so many different emotions; need, compassion, sorrow, lust. They were just so alluring and I suddenly found myself looking away from his eyes and down to his lips. The straight line they were shaped in seemed like he was debating something, but still they looked full and the slight pink tinge made them all the more inviting. They parted slightly like he was going to say something but then closed again. I looked up ito his eyes again and they were now even softer than they were just seconds ago.

Before I knew what was happening, he was leaning forward getting closer and closer to my face. In no time he was so close that I could feel his warm breath on my lips and could smell the mintiness of the toothpaste he probably used this morning. I felt my eyes closing slightly and in just seconds the softness of his lips touched mine. It wasnt a forceful kiss, more like one saying he was sorry for what had happened in my past. He pulled away for a bit before he came back a little harder this time. The kiss now transferred all the emotions that had been running through his eyes to me and I could feel and understand every single one. Sorrow of mine and his past, compassion for me as a person and all I've gone through, need for more of me and the lust of just wanting me. For once in my life, I felt like I belonged somewhere and that place was right here in Logan's arms. The kiss had no fireworks around, but instead flowed nicely like a calm river in the heart of a rainforest.

All too soon, he pulled away and just rested his forehead on mine. My eyes stayed closed and my breaths were slow yet shaky from all the emotion in that one kiss. It was a closed mouth kiss, but it was still able to leave me slightly breathless. I finally opened my eyes only to see that he was looking down at me intently as if waiting for a response to it. I just looked back at him with nothing but the want, the need for more. He leaned down and pressed another kiss to my lips. It was small and quick but was just what I needed. I pulled away completely and just looked at him. We were silent for a bit before he eased us back into playing our game by asking what I thought of the kiss. I giggled slightly but gave him my straight up answer saying that I thought it was quite enjoyable. He laughed and we just continued from there.

~~another upload for u guys... hope u enjoyed it... it was short i know but i figured with all the emotion i wouldnt make it too too long... the next one will be longer i promise:)

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