The Darker Side of Me

Chapter 18: I Forgive You

"Oh sweetheart," Emma cooed. "I know it's hard to take but you always have us. We will help you through everything."

She'd shooed everyone out so just her and I were now sitting in the living alone. I was still sobbing quietly although not as bad as earlier. She was rubbing my back consolingly and I was curled up in a ball beside her. Sarah had made me a big cup of hot chocolate and placed it on the table in front of me. I had a small blanket tucked underneath me and was all snuggled up in it.

"My whole life, they've known it all that time and still never told me," I said more to myself than Emma but she still heard me.

"They only wanted to make sure that when they told you, you would understand it. If they told you when they found out, you would have been too young. At least now you know what it all means."

"But I dont. I mean what if I was to get pregnant? What would happen?"

"We'll depending on who you get pregnant with, the genes in you aren't strong enough to overtake those of a human. But if you were carrying a child of a werewolf, they will have all the same features and abilities as anyone here."

I sighed. "Why does life just keep getting more and more complicated the more I live it?"

"Those are the consequences to being a beautiful, smart, young woman with all the opportunity to do whatever you want," she said.

I smiled at her. "But doesn't this whole alpha female thing put restrictions on my career and educational decisions?"

"The only thing you have to keep in mind is that whatever you do it has to be local or in short driving distance of the log house. Other than that you're options are endless."

I sat up slightly and wrapped my arms around her neck. She brought her hands up to my back and squeezed lightly. "Thank you," I whispered.

She pulled away to look at me. "Anytime honey. You're part of the family now. You can come to me with anything."

"Anything?"

"Of course."

"Ok, so if my mom didnt tell me any of this, how long was Logan going to keep it from me?"

"I couldn't tell you. He told me on Friday when you went out with the girls and ever since then he's kept mostly to himself."

"Oh, ok. So next question." I laughed awkwardly and she smiled at me. "Can't werewolves only mate with others of their kind?"

"Yes."

"So when Sarah first told me about being his mate, should I have been aware that there's something more?"

"Possibly. But with your lack of information and with everything that was going on at the time, I wouldn't expect it of you so early."

"That makes sense," I said with a yawn.

"Tired?"

"Yeah. I think I just need a bit of rest to take this all in."

"Ok," he said quietly. She leaned down an kissed my cheek. "Get some rest. I'm assuming Logan will be home in a bit, you can talk to him then."

She stood up from the couch as I layed back on the pillow that was leaned against the armrest of the chair. "Hey, Emma?" I called as she started to walk away. She turned around to face me and I smiled at her. "Thank you."

She smiled back. "You're welcome. Now get some sleep."

I nodded and snuggled myself further into the blanket and tucked my head against the pillow that was there. As I closed my eyes, I reflected back on what happened today. I found out I was half werewolf and that apparently I got it from my dad. Logan knew, Hunter knew, hell even Mason and Cameron knew, but yet still they were all able to keep it a secret. How I wasnt quite sure, especially Mason. He was never very good at keeping information closed up inside. I guess this really changes everything for me. I'm going to have to call dad and ask him about it. I know he was angry that I didn't get more of his werewolf genetics, but that was no reason to anise both me and mom. And even worse, why would he prevent us from seeing each other?

I awoke what felt like hours later when someone opened the door, but didn't bother to open my eyes. I felt the presence of someone standing beside the couch where I was sleeping. They sat down on the edge of the couch in the crook of where my body was bent. I pretended to stir and felt warm hands touch my cheeks. I slowly opened my eyes and looked up to see a pair of electrifying blue eyes that I'd grown to love in the past 4 days. He smiled down at me sadly and I mustered up a lazy smile.

"Hey princess," he whispered.

"Hi babe," I answered. I slowly sat up and brought my legs to my chest and wrapped my arms around them. I was only wearing the tank top that I slipped on after my shower and a pair of yoga pants. "Where were you?"

"I went for a run. It's what I do when something happens."

"Oh, ok."

"Noah, can we talk?"

"Yeah. I actually want to talk about it."

"Ok. So umm, I guess you know that my mom knows because I told her. But I swear I was going to tell you today and I didn't want you to find out like that. I was just going to ease it in so it wasn't so shocking."

"Yeah, well Dustin definitely didn't do a very good job of that."

"Noah, I just don't want you to be mad at me for it. I promise you that I was going to tell you and I even asked your mom if I could be the one to break it to you, but she said that if she felt that time was right then she would tell you ad I wasn't going to argue with her because I want to be with you and pissing her off us t exactly the best way to ensure that and..."

He was now rambling on a lot, so I reached a hand behind his neck and pulled him to me. I pressed my lips against his not moving them at all. He stopped talking and I pulled away slowly. The kiss was like a long peck on the lips, but it's purpose was served and he was now silent so I could get a few words in.

"I forgive you," I said before he could start talking again. "But promise that we keep no more secrets from each other, no matter what they are."

"I promise."

With that he pulled me back to him and kissed me. It was a soft but desperate kiss, like he'd been waiting forever to do it and couldn't hold back the emotions that we sent to me; need, desire, lust. I kissed back and my arms moved to around his neck. He moved towards me causing me to fall back on the pillow again. I smiled against his lips and he tucked his hand under my back. His other had was brought up to tuck a strand of hair behind my ear. I nearly moaned at the touch of his tongue on mine and felt like I was in a world of pure bliss. This guy was perfect, and I could honestly never stay mad at him.

~~here ya go... so french exam tmrw wish me luck;) I'll try and get another chappie up before but if not the latest it will be up is tuesday afternoon

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