Since Day One

Part 25. Bodyguard of Lies

We had made our way back to Mount weather. We were right outside the barrier that would bring in the fog.

Hundreds of tents were set outside with warriors surrounding them, my sister and Clarke were inside the biggest one talking about what I assume was how we would get in.

I spent my time outside in the middle of all the talking and chaos. We were about to go to war if course everyone would be nervous. I didn't know if I would survive or not, I just knew that my family had to survive. My friends had to live. Bellamy had to be ok.

I didn't quite know what it was, but I needed Bellamy to be ok. I could be crazy, but I  can't have anything happen to him.

I was sitting in front of a fire across a fire, she looked just as deep into thought as I was. I didn't know why she thinking, could it be that she was just worried about her brother?

"Everything ok?" I asked her.

"I've been going over and over it in my head just trying to figure out how you're still alive?" She questioned as she looked slip at me with her black war paint splattered on her face.

I was confused, this question was so random, I mean we've all tried to survive, just a few did. "I don't follow?"

"I saw you in Tondc before the missile hit, I even talked to you. I know you Bela somethings wrong, and then you and your little sister disappear with Clarke and just happen to survive." She paused before proceeding with her question, "Tell me you didn't know it was coming."

I thought about what to tell her, and I could only tell her the truth. "I didn't."

Octavia looked relieved but I hadn't finished speaking.

"Not until Lexa pushed me up against a tree and told me to leave with her, she didn't tell me a missile was going to hit until mere seconds before it did." I continued.

Octavias face dropped.
"And you didn't think something was wrong, you don't think about going back to save everyone?" She asked.

"I did." I responded

"Well then why didn't you, why did you let so many people die" Octavia challenged. "You we're gonna let me die" Octavia added as she got up. I could see she was getting more aggressive.

"Because I trust my sister, I knew that if she was scared, I should be too." I quickly said as as I got up and slowed her down.

"Well maybe, you should be more careful with who you trust." Octavia said as she began to walk away.

"I hope, that some day, you'll understand what if did O." I said, trying to convince her to forgive me.

"Wouldn't hold my breath." She responded until she was out of sight

Once she was gone I began walking through the camps looking for Indra. It'd be nice to hear a few words of wisdom from her. I kept walking everywhere, it was like you were finding your way out a maze. After a few minutes I was back where I started. Back at the fire where Octavia and I had talked.

Lexa and a guard if hers were standing there watching Octavia and Clarke walk away. Lexa face an order and the guard followed. When she turned around she looked shocked, I gave her a small smile and she returned it as she entered her tent.

I looked to my left and saw Indra siting with a few others around a few others.

I joined them as they warmed up around the fire.

"Everything ok?" She asked without making eye contact.

"Uh yea, yea everything's fine." I lied.