Faceless Instincts

Drowned in Lights

Nikolai was out of the room for most of the day. The sun had set hours ago and I had no idea where he went while I sat on the bed reading letter the letter that Lucy gave me.

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Dear Lucy,

I hope you are faring well. I could not say the same for myself. I will forever be ashamed and regretful for what my husband did you and your family while being grateful for your undying friendship regardless.

Things have been turning in this house. I most certainly believe that my husband's alliance with that man is not merely financial. I haven't seen his wife for a long time now, they tell me she left him and went back to their country but I am having a hard time believing that.

Last night I followed my husband again but he vanished into the thin air. I have no clue how he exists the house from the front but is already in bed when I return.

I am growing scared, I am unable to decide if what I see is true or merely my imagination.
My husband says I joined the cult and this is the result of it, but I don't remember. I see day and night differently. I see my boys differently.

Dorian seems like he has a very long neck, could it be a health issue or is it just me? Nikolai is trapped, his father has influenced him so much that he believes none, but for him.

I don't blame the boy, he has seen a lot. He goes against his father whenever it comes to Dorian. Protecting his brother, he has lost himself. My husband didn't want Dorian and I know he had tried to get rid of him but Nikolai has always acted like a brother and a father for him.

I am sure he will take care of him after I go.

Lucy, there is something that I want to unwind before anything terrible happens and it's too late.

A few days ago, I found a moving panel in the wing where the air is filled with roses. I know you will never understand, but Dorian will.

If something happens to me, look for Dorian. Ask him where the air smells like roses and ask him for mama's silver. Everything will be inside it, and hopefully enough to bring the truth to the light.

This might be my last letter as I feel I Don have enough days in my account, but whatever it's worth I am grateful for your friendship.

Tell my boys I will always love them, and tell Nikolai even if he didn't believe me, I know one day he will and to never stop loving his brother as he does because it's all they have; each other.

Sussanne.

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"Sorry, but it seems like you are out of luck and we are stuck with each other" Nikolai barged into the room and slammed the behind him.

"Can you please tone it down or not speak at all for a minute?" I snapped

He raised his brow at me, "first of all, tone. Second of all this is my house..."

"....not exactly."

"And THIRD OF ALL... We'll have to stay in this room together."