Nobody Knows | Jeon Jungkook

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Jungkook

I'm lying with Irina in her bed, the TV attached to the wall in front of us playing a movie that neither of us is really paying attention to. Instead, we're busy talking, joking around, and giggling all we want. It's a morning I always want to have repeated without anyone interrupting us.

It's been five days since Nikolai left and I couldn't wish for him to just stay away for a long time. I can't remember when I last spent quality time with Irina in such a relaxed and peaceful way, and it was much needed.

After everything happened a few weeks ago and I was practically deprived of her company, it felt like I was in drug withdrawal. I was sorry for everything I said and still am, but we are good again now, which lets me fall asleep peacefully at night.

When she forgave me I gave it my all to show her I didn't care what was before me, which has resulted in me becoming even more clingy than before. I know I can be annoying and persistent at times, but I don't think Irina minds. On the contrary, she seems to like the fact that I'm just peppering her face with kisses.

She giggles loudly under me as she tries to get me off of her, but I'm too heavy for that. Actually, Irina has a strength that I haven't seen in any other woman, but maybe she just likes that we're being so playful and silly. After all, who wouldn't like being showered with love?

Also, she seems happier and more content after Taehyung and I had that conversation a few days ago. I have to admit that at first I was shocked that he even wanted to talk to me about it because Taehyung hello?

I can't necessarily say that he is a man who likes to be open with his feelings and show what he thinks. Besides, I thought he hated me - which is probably true regardless - and he would rather jump off a cliff than talk to me about Irina.

But I could see the desperation in his eyes and also the hint of regret. Maybe not just a hint but a whole bunch, but that is beside the point right now. I know Irina felt hurt in the first place because Taehyung made her feel like she couldn't trust him.

Keeping secrets between friends is important and when one decides to put that secret out in the open because of anger, I don't know if that person can be trusted again. And at this point, I can say that Irina and Taehyung were really like friends, although it causes me a lump in my throat.

I'm not jealous of him anymore or anything because Irina can be friends with whoever she wants since I don't have a say in it, but I think it's just because Taehyung is who I haven't quite warmed up to yet.

But maybe that will come with time.

In general, though, I can say that I'm glad that the unnecessary nasty glares and stupid comments between us have stopped and we're more mature with each other even if we still keep a distance between us. It's just neutral if I wanted to put it in words.

"I kind of got hungry," Irina states after we both come down from our laughter. She looks up at me as I hover over her and the sparkle in her eyes holds me captive.

I brush a fallen strand from her face. "Me too, actually," I admit as I hear the growl from my stomach and we both burst out laughing again.

"You literally ate two grilled cheese sandwiches an hour ago." She laughs, her eyes creasing at the edges as she teases me.

"I'm getting hungry real quick. I can't help it." I pout and she pinches my cheek.