Nobody Knows | Jeon Jungkook

Reflection

Dear everyone,

65 chapters, over 270k words, one whole year. My second book has now come to an end and I can't describe how incredibly happy and sad I am at the same time. I feel too attached to the characters and the plot that I will probably think about it for a few more months.

I want to start by thanking you all. Without you guys, it might have been half the fun to write and plot this book. I've carried the idea in my head for a very long time - much before I even published Dangerous Woman - and after a lot of brainstorming, I uploaded the prologue exactly a year ago.

The feedback on even the very first chapter was so good that I couldn't wait to start writing properly. I had so much planned, so many ideas, that I found myself thinking about the scenes more often in bed before I went to sleep. I even created a mind map so I wouldn't forget anything or mess up the connections between characters.

I have to admit that this story really made me tired - especially mentally. My first book was rather casual and easy to write, but just imagining how many plottwists Nobody Knows has just made me lazy at times. I'm sure you guys have read books with heavier plots, but this was hard enough for me. I need a vacation.

I loved every second of this book. Sure every author has chapters in their book that they love less, but overall I can say I'm proud of myself. I hope everything I've written has made sense and if you've enjoyed the book to some extent, then I've achieved my goal either way.

I think I can now say that this book is the one I will love the most among those I have written and hopefully will write.

The only thing that ever dragged me down was my own mentality. I know you guys loved the book and you always showed me that and told me for which I am grateful, but I struggled with myself in parts. I guess the downsides of writing come with experience and time.

Having a finished book put pressure on me, I put high expectations on myself, some of which may have been unrealistic. I didn't do it on purpose, but I wanted to deliver something better, I wanted this book to be better than the last one. I constantly felt like I was writing too much but my words were empty. The chapters got longer and longer when they could have been made more compact, but I just couldn't stop detailing everything like I was trying to prove something. And now this book has a reading time of twenty-one hours (oops)

Well, took me a bit to realize that not everything can be perfect all the time.

Anyways, luckily I managed to pick myself up and successfully finished the book and I have to say - I love it just the way it is. With its qualities and with its flaws.

I'm going to do a short analysis on each character, so if that interests you, please stay until the end♥️

Character analysis:

Jungkook:

The protagonist of this book was Jungkook. I wanted the story to unfold from his perspective, which is why the majority of the story is written in his point of view. I wanted to show how much a person can change without really changing. What Jungkook went through was about growing, realizing what a person is capable of and how much he can give up for the people he cares about.

Now I know that not everyone was okay with all of his actions and that he made mistakes at times, but I think we can agree that he is a man that every woman needs. Not to be protected, but to be loved by. To know that someone has your back when you need them. Someone who is even willing to risk his life.