Volevo Un Gatto Nero ➳ Taegyu ✔

33. Understand

"Why did you? I mean... you have a tattoo for me. Or does that not mean anything to you either?"

"Taehyun, if anything, the tattoo should tell you that you mean everything to me."

"Then why did you cheat on me?!"

It was raining of course. The perfect weather for such a harsh topic. It only made the situation so much sadder, and more violent in a way. Violent as in they were both so upset that they wanted to cry so bad.

"I didn't mean to..."

Taehyun's eyes widened and he scoffed. "You didn't mean to? Really?! You think I'm stupid enough to accept that bullshit excuse?!"

"I was at a bar-"

That just made Taehyun more angry and he was about to go inside when Beomgyu grabbed his arm to stop him. "Now I know you're lying. Vampires can't get drunk."

"I didn't say I was drunk." Taehyun looked at him curiously. "It happened around a week before I left. You were going through a lot because you were stressed out, and you were saying things about wanting to give up and that you've been here for too long. And you were gone for hours and you never did that when we were on the run because you were scared of leaving me by myself. So I thought you were gone."

"I was at a park down the road thinking."

"Okay well that's great to know now but you could've told me that before you left back then."

"How does this play into your story?"

Beomgyu sighed and looked down. "I felt really fucking scared and alone when I thought you died. I didn't go to the bar to get drunk. I went to try to drink myself to death because I was really sad and scared and then there was this other vampire there who said I needed to stop because I was already really sick from throwing up a lot and then he took me somewhere and we slept together and-"

"Beomgyu, slow down. Just..." now he felt bad and he sighed. "Slow down."

"I don't wanna use the excuse that I wasn't in the right mindset because I feel like everyone uses that excuse. I was just really sad and I felt alone and at that point I was exhausted from getting sick over and over again. And then I went back to the hotel room and you don't know how happy, but sad I was that you were back. I was so fucking ecstatic to see that you were okay. But I realized what I did and I couldn't go back. And I knew it would hurt you when you found out. I was going to tell you myself, but I couldn't find the time."

Taehyun stared at the ground and sighed. "I'm sorry."

Beomgyu furrowed his eyebrows. "There's no reason for you to be sorry. It was my fault."

"I was yelling at you." He watched Beomgyu walk out into the rain and the younger turned to face him.

"And you had every right to. I'm gonna go because I've hurt you too much. But I just need you to know what happened. And I don't expect you to forgive me for everything I did to you. I just want you to understand..."

He was looking down when he suddenly felt hands running through his wet hair. He looked up at Taehyun, whimpering when the older looked sad.

"It's okay," he said. "I know you're not lying to me. It's okay."

Beomgyu hugged him tightly. All he wanted for the past six months was to just have him again. Tell him what happened and hope he'd understand. Not forgive him, but just understand.

"Let's go inside," Taehyun said, shivering from the freezing rain. Beomgyu agreed and followed him, having to deal with a bunch of vampires who were mad at him.