Ugh my head hurts... And my back... Where am i? Is this a bed? I cant see... Thats a picture of... Shit, this is jasons bed. did we? Did i? I mean... I cant remember.
"goodmorning minny." jason said, stepping into his room.
"oh um... Goodmorning." i said, trying not to stare at his pecks...
"we didn't... You know." he said, reading my mind as he jumped on the bed.
"thank god." i whispered, looking around the room.
"not that we both didnt want to, i mean we did... But i knew this wasnt something to be taken lightly. And i know you wouldn't want your first time voluntarily to be like this." he said, looking at me with soft eyes.
"what did we-" he cut me off, putting a hand over my mouth.
"Second base. You're okay." he whispered, looking worriedly at me.
Michale!!! Wait... Not important.
Cali? I'll call markis.
"Where's my phone???" i asked, a bit paniced.
"you asked me to hold it so you wouldn't drunk text." he laughed, looking away.
"what's so funny?" i said, looking him in the eye.
"you just... I cant believe we made out. I know were not together, but it felt... Nice." he said, blushing a bit.
"i wish i remembered." i lied, getting up. You can't forget a kiss like that, but he doesn't know that. And i dont want him to... Not the time, place, or guy.
"can you please go get my phone?" i asked sweetly, trying to keep myself covered. I wasnt naked, but i felt like it. I felt uncomfortable. Because i like him... But these guys don't change. They simply hide it better.
"here" he smiled, handing it to me.
"I'll go make breakfast. Come out when you're ready." he said, smiling as he left.
"Ugh its taking forever!!! Just turn on!!!" o thought impatiently.
As it turned on, i looked at the screen. Instantly my phone started buzzing from a number i didnt know.
"hello?" i said groggily.
"minny? Please don't hang-"
I clicked the end button, i dont have time for michale. Not anymore. My phone started to buzz and saw he had sent me 13 text messages... Great.
I opened them from oldest to newest.
The first text i saw read
"finally got action. Something you never gave me!!!"
The next.
"im better off without you."
Next.
"i wish you would have gotten the hell out of my life earlier."
After which he sent ten apologies. Wow.
And when exactly did he have time for cali???
My phone went off for an answer.
"cali is with my sisters, im so sorry. Please forgive me. I didnt mean any of those things. I love you, you know that. And i forgive you for the amy thing. Please, just come back home."
I was pissed... I wanted to kill him.
"im at jasons right now and having trouble finding my shirt. Ill have markis pick cali up. Other than that, go screw yourself. I cant believe i let you have time with cali, and you blew her off... You are sooooo much worse than i thought. Markis was right about you."
I pressed send, feeling a bit better.
I found my shirt and put it on, walking down the hall to the kitchen.
"wait... The field was yours???" i asked, seeing where we had parked the truck last night.
"yeah, i figured you missed that rush though. Doing something bad and feeling your heart race." he winked at me, smiling.
How'd he know that?
"well, thanks for letting me crash and sorry... About the drunk kiss thing."
He looked hurt.
"is that the only reason you kissed me?"
I paused... It wasn't, i knew it... But should he?
"no... But i have cali to think about. And i just broke it off with my ex fiancé... You're to good to be a rebound." i said honestly.
"im not to good for anything. I hit you. I hurt you. I dont deserve the fun of even being a rebound." he whispered, not looking at me.
"shhh, dont say that. You made a mistake when you weren't mentally okay. You can't blame yourself for something that you've been forgiven for." i said, taking his hand and grabbing his chin, facing him to me.
"i know this is hard, but were okay." i whispered, looking at his sad eyes.
"i forgive you for everything. And i want you to know, if the situation were different, i really would... I wouldn't be leaving. I would kiss you right now and we... Things would be different." i whispered, not knowing how to explain myself.
"well, they aren't. I don't deserve you, but you deserve happiness. Im always here... For anything. And i... When you are okay again, i will be waiting for you." he whispered in my ear, kissing my cheek gently.
"you're coming over tonight to see me and cali... I need you." i replied gently, kissing his collarbone.
I walked out, calling markis to pick up cali.
Im... At peace now, i guess... But i dont wanna face this alone.
Let's see where this goes.
