Perfect | JIKOOK

Chapter-30

Jungkook's pov.

             No one dared to say anything after I started and I also stopped caring if I was messing everything up. Because now, the only thing that matter was that I was losing everything thing.

            From the moment I saw him standing at his door, I convinced myself that I wouldn't say anything that would hurt him, if he was happy this way, I would let him be happy.

        But in the process of giving him happiness or thinking about what would make him happy, I was neglecting myself. I was forgetting how all of this was going to affect me.

        One could call me selfish, but Jimin wasn't the only one that invest all his fucking childhood, whether it was like a friend or a lover. I always preferred Jimin. I even preferred him over someone that I first had feelings for.

       He was my best friend and then even if I try to deny that I did all this out of sympathy or the fear of losing him, it can't change the fact that I did love him and I still do and it didn't have to be tagged as friends love or any other sort of love.

        " I messed up, I know," I said broken-hearted, " I cheated, but you really had to reciprocate what I did?" I asked bending lower on Jimin's level, he was sobbing and every single tear that was leaving his eyes was shattering my heart in tiny little pieces.

He was silent and that angered me more. He still couldn't tell me what he really feels, why was he so afraid of me...Why...

      " Jungkook you really don't know his side of the story, so please think thousand times before you say anything," Rose got the courage to say that, I turned my attention to her and gave her a sarcastic laugh.

     " Oh! So you know him better than me? Huh," I laughed sarcastically.

      " Actually we all know him better than you because you were so busy dealing your shit that you never really paid attention to him," Taehyung grumbled but instead of giving him attention, I averted my attention to Jimin.

       " Pl-please d-don't listen to them J-jungkook... I'll tell you everything that you need to know," Jimin choked out, I gulped but managed to keep myself on track as I  really wanted to say and listen to a lot of things.

      " Don't fucking beg him, Jimin. He cheated on you, he doesn't deserve that treatment," Rose groaned coming closer to us, " remember what you went through... Remember how you are trying to overcome."

She was pissing me off.

     " That's the thing, everyone knows everything about you but I know nothing," my voice became hoarse as I tried so hard not to cry, Why Jimin? Why? Why are you so comfortable with everyone except me, We weren't like that. We were happy,"

      " Let me tell you," Rose started, making everyone look at her.

      "No Rose, please... I don't want to be any more miserable," Jimin said, shaking his head as he sat on the ground.

       " No, let me tell him so that he will stop and stay away from you," she bitterly said.

       " You are no one to decide if he'll stay with me or stay away from me,"  I spat, making her roll her eyes.

Can't believe I had a thing for her.

       " Why don't you ask him...he's been trying desperately to forget you,"  she said and I looked at Jimin in utter shock.

      Looking at him in his eyes for something or anything that would say she was lying but no...Jimin only lowered his head making me feel like everyone left and I stood alone in a desert, in between dunes, with heat that burnt my skin and throat that was thirsty for days.