Perfect | JIKOOK

Chapter-16

Jungkook's POV.

I reached home, broken hearted. I was inches away from breaking down so as soon as I saw my mom, I hugged her.

" What happened, Jungkook? Why are you crying?" She asked, concerned as I sobbed on her shoulder.

" I am crying because I am a mess. I am crying because I messed up. I am crying because there no way turning back. I crying because I don't know who I really am..," I said, frustrated as tears were constantly leaving my eyes, " why am I like this, Mom? Why?"

" What.. what did you do?" She asked, face pale as if her greatest fear was coming to life.

" What did I do?? Seriously Mom?" I grumbled, as the rage was slowly building inside me. " Should've asked what's wrong with me, or why am I cry? But no! You never expect something good from me." I said, laughing bitterly.

She has always been like this, but I was too you to understand. She always wanted to control me. She always wanted something good from me and I tried my best to make her happy. But now, I am done trying. I want her to understand me.

But of course, she wouldn't. No one would.

" Why would you say that, Kookie?" She said, her expressions pained as she looked at me with glossy eyes. " I just want good for you. I want you to be good,"

" That's the problem, mom. You always want me to be good." I gritted my teeth, face red with anger.

What fueling me more was the fact that she won't accept the bad side of me. She won't accept the fact that I am cheater. I always has to be perfect, which I am not.

Or

I felt terrified for disappointing her so I was simply putting blame on her....I didn't know.

Whatever I was... I just wanted to disappear.

" You are my son, Jungkook. Of course I'll always want you to be good but that doesn't mean I don't care what you feel." She said, coming closer again. " You don't have any idea how much I love you, my baby," she said cupping my cheeks. She looked pained and hurt, and I felt more guilty for doing this to her.

But I couldn't help it.

" I cheated on him, mom." I said, hugging her again and hugging her felt safe as if nothing can go wrong now.

Tears that felt my eyes, soaked onto her shoulder. But I didn't care. Why am I like this? Guilt, guilt, guilt. I hurt her, I hurt Jimin. I hurt everyone who is near and dear to me. Why am I like this?

" Its okay, it's okay. Calm down, calm down," she said, caressing the back of my head, " we all make mistakes... Just tell me what happened and everything will be fine," she consoled me.

Some moments earlier, I was angry at her and now... I was simply grateful for her to be there.

I told her everything that happened, how it all started and how it all ended.

She remained silent and kind of terrified.. I didn't know why.

I was afraid of she'll judge me for all this but she didn't. Instead, she pulled me into a tight hug as if she was trying to protect me.

" You have to listen carefully what I am going to tell you now," she said, her eyes concerned, " there is no doubt, Jimin loves you right?," She asked.

" Yes, he loves me." I swiftly replied as it was a universal truth.

" Do you love him?" She asked,