Perfect | JIKOOK

Chapter-15

         Jungkook's POV.

             " I want you to break up with me," he said, his face was emotionless, he wasn't crying. was it so easy for to say and do?

     
              " I thought you love me more than I love you," I said, my head down as I controlled the urge to cry.

              " I do love you, but I just want to be sure that you love me the same way as I love you," he said, looking in my eyes with determination as he already made up his mind that he is not going to give me chance.

             " I love you the same way, Jimin. Trust me...... Okay I accept I am not totally gay.. but I can me bisexual, right?" I reasoned, actually bullshitted, don't know.. the fact that I hurt him intentionally was eating me alive.

             And the fact that he wasn't giving a shit about it or trying his to hide his true feelings was eating me even more.

            I expected him to yell at me or cry that I did wrong, I would've begged him to forgive me but...he asked me for a break instead.

           We've known eachother for so long....there is nothing like breakup between us. If today is bad and thing aren't working between us, we can try tomorrow and should keep trying until the very end.

          " I don't think I can ever break up with you," I muttered, tears pooling in my eyes as I felt terrified.

         " And why is that..?" He asked, smiling half-heartedly.

         " I don't know... I just can't... This thought terrifies me..." I grumbled, wiping my eyes harshly. He smiled.

           One thing that terrified me even more was, what if I started making the same mistake again and again? What if the whole idea of being bisexual turned out as a lie? Jimin was right, I really need to figure out what I really am.

But that doesn't change the reality that we can't break up.

          " You need time to think Jungkook... because I am pretty much sure that you only consider yourself as gay or.... bisexual when you are with me," He stated and damn....

He was right.

          " The idea of us breaking up doesn't actually terrifies you, you are actually afraid to admit what you really are. You're afraid to hurt me, but Jungkook.... I really don't want you mess yourself up because of me." He said, placing his hand on my shoulder, looking at me with eyes full of concern.

          He was really grown up and his ability to read my mind enhanced by the time. He is more mature now, I wonder what changed him.. I was speechless.

          " And I am not going anywhere..." He started again, " Even if we break up.. we will always be friends, because you are right.... We can't actually break up, but we can save our precious bond from being toxic.... I don't want to lose what we have, we are friends first and lovers second and even if you don't love me as a lover, I am happy that you tried," He said, cupping my face, smiling with crescent eyes and puffy cheeks.

          " You're right..." I said, defeated, " but... After all this... I still want say one thing... What we have is more than friends." I added.

I just wanted him to realise that I wasn't completely wrong I said I love him.

          " But less than love," he added,