Perfect | JIKOOK

Chapter-17

   
        Rose's POV.

               I've been observing Jimin and Jungkook for a couple of days now and anyone can tell something was off. The two love birds of our school that always stick together were acting like total strangers.

             We all knew the reason, but no one tried to put a finger on it in hope that everything will eventually be settled down but this ain't gonna happen... I guess.

            I didn't know what exactly happened between them but one thing was for sure that both of them were suffering. Jungkook was randomly picking fights these days and Jimin was extra quiet, only minding his own business.

         I saw him sitting on the bench, so I decided to talk to him. I feel bad for them, especially for Jimin. Because after all those years I still had feelings for him. It's not like I was trying to take a chance...I just wanted to talk...like friends, because even if I love him but I know that his happiness doesn't to me.

       " Do you think what I have for Jungkook is love?" He randomly asked, looking at Jungkook, who was abusing basketball on a basketball court from afar.

        " Are you doubting your love?" I asked, giving him a pointed looked as he continued looking in Jungkook's direction.

       " No... It's just...." He absent-mindedly said, then looked at me with all the sadness in his eyes.

       " Mind telling me what happened? We are friends, right?"  I asked, with hopeful eyes. He nodded.

        " There is nothing much to tell you other than we broke up," he said, and I didn't know if I should act surprise or just go with the flow because it was pretty obvious.

        " I guessed it already," I lowly said, feeling bad for him, " but everything is going to be fine.  I am sure what you have for Jungkook is love," I said, resting my hand on his shoulder. He sighed. " And you can cry out, Jimin. Don't hold it in... It gonna worsen your situation."

         " That's the case, Rose. Everyone is expecting me to cry and remorse and I don't get why? Because he cheated on me? But guess what? I already prepared myself for this." He bitterly replied. " No one except you guys wanted to be my friend when he was gone and I've had been through hell without him but now I know how to survive without him."

          " I am sorry, this happened,"  I said as I haven't had anything else to say. When he was being bullied, I did everything I could without his knowledge. I defended him in every possible way.

          I desperately wanted to tell him how adorable he is and how much I love him but I couldn't.. because I didn't want to show what I felt for him and

          " No don't say sorry... it's all my fault... It's my fault that I still love him after all of this. It's my fault that I am not trying to change myself after all of this. It's my fault that he cheated on me and it's totally my fault I am still holding on to single hope that I have for him...and yet I can't accept him back because I am insecure about my own self." He grumbled, his face fumed.

I didn't know if he was angry at Jungkook or... himself.

I envy Jungkook for having this much impact on Jimin.

But I would never take advantage of their situation.

          And even if I want to take advantage, Jimin's sexuality was the only thing that he was sure of. So there was no chance that he'll fall for me. *Sad*

          " So what are you gonna do now?" I asked.

          " I don't know... moving is the best option I guess," he said, smiling lowly, " I stopped you here to ask your opinion but I already made up my mind I guess.." he sarcastically laughed.