Perfect | JIKOOK

Chapter-48

Jimin's pov

                   "I know you don't like me," Lisa said as she saw me reaching the parking lot.  "I've wronged you, I am the villain, punish me, but please don't take it out on someone who loves you so much,"

                 " Bullshit," I spat with tears in my eyes. " If he really loved me he wouldn't have talked to me like that in front of everyone,"

    It wasn't the exact reason I told her of me being angry. I couldn't tell her that it was her who made me angry, it was the misery that she brought on me in the past. It was her who made me so damn insecure about myself that even if I changed, even if I became the man everyone wants to have, I still feel incomplete, I still feel that I am not good enough for Jungkook.

           " And what about him? What about you hurting him?" She was angry, and I, for a moment, saw the glimpse of the old Lisa and I terrified me.

         I rested my hands on the car beside me and leaned on it to catch my irregular breath.

   
         " You still love him, don't you?" I said with all the hatred in my eyes. " You can have him, but I won't take any bullshit on myself this time. You can not bully me this time,"

       " Shit," Lisa muffled out and tears rolled down her eyes. " I do love him, I always will," she choked on the tears.

     It made my heart clench, she still loved him, after all these years. And she was a perfect match for Jungkook. I should be happy for them but I felt like I'd die, I'd die alone.

       I was fooling myself, I was using Taemin, I was hurting everyone just to compensate for what they did to me.

       " You know what," Lisa said, smiling as she wiped her cheeks. " Back then, I always thought why are you so happy with what you had and me, even after having all I got I was still unhappy,"

I looked at her and she sobbed.

        " I was so fucking happy when you left, I thought finally Jungkook will be mine. I tried everything I could to make him love me. But he never looked at me the way he looks at you,"  she looked broken, leaned beside me and we both face the moon shining right up in the sky.

       " I always thought what do you have that I don't, I envied you for that, I bullied you just to make my soul satisfied but nothing helped. Why...why were you so satisfied when you weren't even sure that he loved the same way as you do?" Lisa asked me and it made me think.

        " Because I never expected anything, I just loved him," I thought about the old times. " Fuck, I don't even remember when I started loving him," I chuckled.

        " Then why can't see the love he holds for you? He was miserable without you. Everyone left, Jimin. Not a single friend of him stayed. Not even Rose. He tried to look strong but he was as broken as you were." She was desperate.

         " I am not good for him. He deserves so much better than me. I am still the same pathetic Jimin that left him," I lowly said.

       
        " And he loves the same pathetic Jimin who left him," she said, making look at her. She smiled. " I am not asking you for your forgiveness, I know I don't deserve it but I just want to make one thing right. I just want you both to be happy."

        " I forgive you, Lisa. And I am thankful that you took care of him," I lastly said, " I think we should go back in,"

She nodded.

         I understood her for the very first time in my life. It isn't easy to see your love being in love with someone else. She might not love him as much as I love him but she cared. She cared enough to stay without expecting anything.