Some Thorns, Some Roses

XVII | How to Escape Semi-Voluntary Captivity For Dummies

I spaced out, I couldn't hear and I could hardly breathe. It didn't take a village to figure out what was happening. I didn't need hearing abilities to read from his mouth, "Im sorry."

After that, I squeezed my eyes shut and hung my head low. I took a shaky, shallow breath and tried to calm myself. On the tin roof of the cabin, I heard small thuds. That was the first thing I heard again, signalling to me that it was raining, which is probably why Quincy and West started filing back in the living area.

I could hear Xander calling my name, I swear I could hear it, but I didn't answer him. I was too busy trying to say something respectful because right now it would sound something cruel like, "You promised me, you would figure this out." So silence was the best option right now. I just glanced at him, letting him know that I heard him.

"Don't worry, we are going to figu-" he started and I admitted snapped.

"Don't worry?" I asked dryly, hoping off the counter to stand on my own. I bitterly chuckled and nodded my head. "Don't worry shit. I should worry because there is absolutely nothing to figure out. What is there to figure out?"

My tranquility took them by surprise so they almost didn't know how to respond to me. So my dad spoke up, "We have to figure out how to get your life back normal. As much as possible." he informed me, sounding as gentle as possible.

"Right... normal." I was being a bitch, but I couldn't help it. Everyone kept telling me to keep calm while I was freaking out. Now, when it's finally time for me to be panicking, I can't bring myself to freak out. So now I am here, bitter, nervous, and really sad.

"I don't give two shits about me, if I'm being honest. When are the boys going back to school?" I asked, blinking away tears as they quickly appeared.

"You should care about you," West added, looking at me with so much concern. I couldn't bare looking at him for too long so I looked at my dad and Xander.

"What about them?" I asked again, blinking numerous times still trying to not cry.

Xander sighed and nodded his head as if he was pissed himself or maybe like he couldn't believe they denied the offer. "They can go back whenever."

Without hesitation, I looked at Quincy and said aloud, "Good, go back to California."

His eyebrows furrowed together and he nodded his head swiftly. Quincy almost looked like he wanted to protest so I stopped him.

"No... don't argue. I won't be the reason why Atticus is kicked out of school or the twins can't graduate. I've already ruined Quincy's scholarship." I almost started crying so I cut myself off while nodding my head in exhaustion. "Please don't argue with me and just go back. Maybe they'll let you back in if you go back now... please do it Quincy."

I really couldn't live with myself if more shit went down. I couldn't bare if everyone's hard work went down the drain. All because of me.

So I looked at my dad and hoped he would be the final decision maker. He sighed deeply and nodded his head, seemingly agreeing with me. 

"She's right." Dad agreed with me, sighing deeply. 

That's the first. 

"Dad!" 

"Uncle H..." 

My family yelled out, looking at him as if he were crazy. "You can't be serious," Quincy laughed bitterly, looking at my dad as if he were crazy. 

"Serena's right." he sternly repeated himself, looking at Quincy with no remorse. "You can't throw your life down the drain because of this matter. You and your brothers being here, isn't going to change anything."