|| SamBucky (WinterFalcon Oneshots) ||

You Promised You Wouldn't Leave Me. . .

(An au where person a is a fiction character, a figment of person b's imagination. Except Person A has to say goodbye when they can feel the other start slowly fade away.)

"I always knew you'd leave sooner..." Bucky says, their sapphire blue eyes that hold so much emotion full of salty tears. It hurts to see them like that, knowing I'm the cause of their sadness. It isn't ideal. Leaving behind the only person who understands me. 

 "I'll wait here for you," He whispers, spinning me around a slow twirl, the rain around pelting against the cement, the moon shining brightly and the stars twinkling behind angry grey clothes. It was a shitty feeling A feeling that makes Sam wish he never felt anything at all. Because his heart was aching with the weight of loss from a loved one. My lips tremble as I wail, my body shaking with sobs as Bucky brings me closer. "I don't want to leave!" I say. "There has to be another way. Seriously, there has to be another way! Another way where you can stay-"

The man smiles a watery smile, his gloved fingers gently lifting my chin up. God, I'm going to miss those eyes. The eyes that made me feel safe and loved and adored. "It's just the cycle, darling." He says, pressing a lingering kiss against my forehead, and I hold them tighter. Mesmerising everything. The way their eyes sparkle whenever they see me, the way their smile lights up the world. Makes it seem just a little less darker. I know it's silly to find comfort in someone who isn't even a real. A figment of my imagination. To find comfort in a trick conjured by our brain to cope with pain and trauma I faced. I feel myself start to cry again and it's like that for a while. 

Bucky holding me while I cry my heart out, just wanting to scream at the raging pain inside of me. 

Instead of screaming, I whisper an appreciation. 

"Thank you, for taking care of me... I'll miss you so much." 

Jesus, how much I wish to stay here just a while longer. In the arms of someone who cares dearly about me.

"Promise me something, hmm?" He says softly, running his hand through my hair, the movement comforting and soothing. 

"Stay strong for me, yeah? Think you can do that?" I nod my head. 

God I'm so tired now. From all this crying I just want to curl up into a ball and sleep. Oblivious to the world around me. Oblivious to the pain that's clawing at my heart and ripping it open. There's this void in my heart, making it hurt to even breathe. But I promised Bucky that I'll stay strong. 

"Remember this, doll. You are strong. Stronger than anyone I've met and you will meet obstacles upon obstacles, but don't let them stop. Overcome them and become stronger. You have dreams to change the world, and I'll be with you through every step, even if it is through your memories. I'm proud of you, baby. So proud. You parents would be proud, so would your sister and Riley." He presses another kiss to my forehead. 

"Don't you ever give up. You hear me?" 

I don't answer, just take in the sight of the man I love. Even if it isn't real. It's real to me and that's all that matters. 

"I love you."

The damn breaks again and another fresh batch of tears fill my eyes. 

"I love you too." I heave between sobs, digging my head into his neck.

"I love you so much."