Bitter Temptation ~ Steve Rogers

Chapter 21

(Y/N POV)
I stopped at Steve's door and considered knocking but I guessed we were well passed that. I walk in and see Steve sitting shirtless on the edge of his bed.

His head snaps up to see who it is, blue eyes filled with rage and pain but soften when they see it's me.
I can't control the words stumbling out of my mouth about Derek about him and about how I wanted to talk. He just stares at me the whole time. I can't help but notice the guilty look on his beautiful face.

So paranoid my eyes scan the room and fall by the side of his bed. Then I see them. A pair of black lace panties that are definitely not mine. I abruptly stop talking and stare at them. Steve's head turns to see what has caught my attention and his breath hitches.

The realisation hit me like a icy bucket of water....

My stomach drops and I my heart beat is pounding furiously in my chest. I can feel my legs practically giving in so I stabilise myself. The look on his face....

One word.

Betrayal

Panic takes over Steve's face. "y/n" he tries to reason softly my whispering my name. In a way that would usually give me butterflies in my stomach but now it just makes me feel sick. His eyes go glassy.

"Is this some kind of sick joke" I mutter before turning on my heel walking out of the room quickly down the hall towards my room. Slamming my door.

Almost immediately the door flies open and a now clothed Steve stands in my doorway. I look at him and all I can see is her. I know we never had a label but I genuinely thought we.....I just don't know.

"y/n listen to me" he barks running his hands through his hair frustrated.

His tone making me flinch.

"I can't look at you right now Steve" I spit and turn away from him slipping off my shoes.

"Your such a hypocrite! As if you haven't been screwing Derek behind my back making me look like an idiot y/n!" he shouts, his tone venomous.

I freeze at his words still facing away. Is he for real? He really thought I was fucking Derek. I can't believe he thinks so low of me. I can't comprehend.
Suddenly the strong stench of beer fills my lungs as Steve moves further into the room. I cringe.

"Steve have you been drinking?"

"Yes but I'm not drunk, I can't get drunk y/n. God damn serum" he mumbles ashamed.

"So you did this completely sober?!" I question, pain evident in my voice but quickly changes to anger.
"Derek and I are just friends! We haven't been anything since our drunken night together! I'm now screaming in rage. His expression changes from angry to shocked in the space of two seconds.

He opened his mouth to say something but nothing came out. He places his hands on his hips.

"But you didn't let me explain did you? You just made me your villain didn't you Steve?!" I snap now holding the tears from falling down my cheeks.

"y/n I didn't know" he attempted to explain.

"I let you in.....I trusted you" I barley whisper and he looks like his heart broke in half at my words. I know mine did. I could feel the bile rising in my throat.
I'm actually gonna get sick, that's how upset I am.

""y/n I've been such a fool-" he tries to explain once again but I wasn't having any of it.

"Get the fuck out" I snap.

His mouth gapes open for a couple of seconds but he spins around slowly respecting my wishes.

Before he's even left the room I spring to my en-suite clasping my hand over my mouth. I felt awful.

I practically fell into my bathroom leaving the door ajar. I hurl myself over the toilet and start throwing up. Steve stood in my doorway contemplating if he should come over and help me.

I kept throwing up for a couple minutes. Until I wipe my mouth with a cloth, my breath ragged as I'm hunched over the toilet. Steve takes a step forward.

I lean against the bathroom wall throwing my head back in discomfort. "I said get the fuck out!" I spit without even opening my eyes.

Steve stopped in his tracks before slowly walking back out stopping in the doorframe without turning to face me. Only for a second though until he walked away out into the hall. I was left alone again.....

I was overwhelmed with emotions. Betrayal, sadness, pain, sickness and confusion. I don't know how I always let myself end up in situations like this.

He slept with another woman. The thought alone caused me to hunch over the toilet once more. Hurling my guts up. I begin to sob uncontrollably.

I don't know if I can ever forgive him for this but...I love him. I was so stupid to fall in love with him. But he obviously doesn't reciprocate my feelings so this was probably a wake up call to get me out.

It's always the ones we love the most who will hurt us the worst.......

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Hello m'loves, sorry it's been so long and that this is so short. Hope ya'll enjoyed. Until next time. I love you all!