9/22/21
I don't really have much to say to be honest, I didn't have much to say yesterday either but still...emotions are just confusing, I honestly can't tell what I feel.
Ok that is a lie, I know what I am feeling, but its all too messy, all too confusing. I just can't keep them in order and its frustrating me. I am angry, I am jealous, I am sad, I hate myself so much for these feelings...but then I am happy? I am proud? I feel like the most painful hole i had was covered up. But there is another hole, a hole I'm trying to cover up with these emotions and its not working. But that is a hole I have to learn to cover up by myself. I know I can do it. I done it before I can do it again. I just need to stay happy, It will work! it won't work. I will be alright! Your lying to yourself. Well maybe lying to myself is what will help me cover that hole, it always has and it always will. ... Your hopeless. Well your just a ball of edgyness! Get back in your hidie hole stupid! ...
My brain is confusing, it can't decide on anything, but it can make a choice for anyone else but itself. Its so weird...I hate my brain
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My secrets that are not really secret.
RandomI was first going to make this for someone special..., so in somewhat they wouldn't be alone when telling their feelings...I don't think they actually needs that from me though...but still I kind of also think this would help me out as well, especia...
