10/12/21
I have been being an asshole a lot lately...I don't know why really. Well, no that is a lie, I know why I am being an asshole...because I haven't had anything to make my life a little life-like so instead I converting to being somewhat of a horny asshole. Letting the negative emotions and thoughts i have spilling out of the bottle.
On purpose. I need...something to just make my life a little interesting, so if there are no problems for me, i will create the problems. Toxic? Yeah I fully know that...and also being an asshole is just easier, easier to drive everyone away. If I can't forget my worries and pain, I will be an asshole in order to bury the worries and pain. It is working so far...feeling less sad. More empty...i don't like feeling sad, I like feeling empty because then I won't know I am empty. Plus on the bright side being an asshole will make the transition of moving from friends alot easier, alot less harder when everyone else moves on with their lives, happily. I am ok, just deciding to be a horny asshole instead if forgetting wont work.
Lost my motivation to draw or anime though...eh not like i really need to.
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RandomI was first going to make this for someone special..., so in somewhat they wouldn't be alone when telling their feelings...I don't think they actually needs that from me though...but still I kind of also think this would help me out as well, especia...
