11/23/21
I failed myself again but...I mean there is no point in doing the test when I am going to be right anyway. Ima just...i decided to not get attached and just see them as something to entertain me when I'm bored. That way things hurt less.
I mean like; Aedhon and everyone already sees it that way so its not like it will hurt anyone and no one will notice but really before. I didn't just seem them as entertainment I saw them as friends...but i just been thinking alot...it was the other way around really. I was the entertainment. I always been the entertainment even in real life I was just...and entertainment...and it will stay that way and...I am fine with that because its all I am going to get. I just gotta teach myself to not get attached anymore, to stop worrying about random people on the internet. Because that is my reality, though in order to keep my "friends" i have to be as interesting as possible but unfortunally I fail that. So...instead of bringing my self into this endless cycle of trying to be as interesting as possible but getting forgotten because its well painful.... I will instead just...
well...
Eat the Soup while its hot and throw it out when its cold. and get new soup instead of the same old soup.
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My secrets that are not really secret.
LosoweI was first going to make this for someone special..., so in somewhat they wouldn't be alone when telling their feelings...I don't think they actually needs that from me though...but still I kind of also think this would help me out as well, especia...
