10/25/21
I don't like showing pain, makes me feel weak. But everyday I feeling pain now. I just..i guess i am still processing the fact that I lost a friend. I tried to cover it up by roleplaying but even that is going away.
So now I am being left with my own thoughts, and my thoughts are painful, they hurt, I hate them. I think of so many bad things...sometimes i even think about killing myself. But I am too much of a coward to really do that.
God I am so clingy, I just have to tell my self that my friend is probably doing a lot better without me, all my friends will be happy without me. if they are happy...I guess I am happy to, even if i have to not be their friends anymore for them to be happy
Stop lying to yourself
YOU ARE READING
My secrets that are not really secret.
RandomI was first going to make this for someone special..., so in somewhat they wouldn't be alone when telling their feelings...I don't think they actually needs that from me though...but still I kind of also think this would help me out as well, especia...
