4/15/22
I have abandonment issues...which is kind of obvious if anyone ever read every chapter I made. I sit here today, trying to figure out how to overcome abandonment issues when I keep being left behind, forgotten and abandoned. I am so scared, I want to curl up and cry, its all happening over again. No one cares about me anymore, I am not important anymore. I am not relatable anymore, people will forget me, only person who loved-loved me, hates me now. What did I do wrong to deserve to be ignored, why does it feel like even my friends are getting tired of me.
It feels like I am talking to my self, talking to a fading void. I am trying to ignore it, but I can't. I am trying to forget the pain but I fucking can't and no one is helping, no one can help me, no one even cares. I can't say anything about my pain cause it only makes me stupid.
I never noticed the hole in me, until it was filled then taken away. It hurts so much cause I can't go back to ignoring the hole. Why can't I ignore it anymore?
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RandomI was first going to make this for someone special..., so in somewhat they wouldn't be alone when telling their feelings...I don't think they actually needs that from me though...but still I kind of also think this would help me out as well, especia...
