11/14/21
God...I made such a big mistake, got the only friend willing to ever still be my friend in trouble. I am not a good person, even talking to me could get people in trouble. I fucking hate this, I should have just left it alone, left myself alone...I would have deal with it, it wouldn't hurt. Now I am surely alone, and I got my friend in trouble because I just couldn't deal with being alone. I am such god damn fucked up person. And if Micah doesn't hate me enough already, hes gonna hate me even more, and almighty will hate me for pinning him. fucking damnit.
I told him to leave though, don't come back. I apologize to him for even mentioning him or talking with him. I hope that fixes up things. I hope I didn't ruin their relationship like how i ruin everything else. I should have just listen to my mom and never gotten attached. now everything is hurts because i got attached to people who will just hate me, people who just find me annoying. why do i always do this to myself...but it was nice talking while i could. I am glad i could just talk for a final time. but I guess, I am just gonna have to live my normal boring life. but this time alone.
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