11/7/21
hhh I talked with almighty, I guess I just wanted to reassured that they don't want me back. They don't, i mean I did leave on purpose but only because there wasn't anything left for me with them, and they were getting bored of me so I left before they left me. I left on my own terms. But unfortunally I am attached and wanna go back but I can't cause I left on my own terms...though it doesn't feel that way because if I left on my own terms at least I could go back. But I couldn't. they didn't want me back that is fine though. Its better to leave then slowly be forgotten by your closes friends, becoming a ghost or a filler in their life when they get bored. I was never part of their life but they were part of mine. One sided friendship are a painful thing though I am always in one-sided friendships. most of my bestfriend in real life left or its one-sided and im the only one considers them a friend. Its happening with my online friends to.
He said he wasn't going to leave the group, but leaving the project. But he was never part of the project. he left, so what did he mean by he was going to leave the project? He was going to leave the group. Because if he left the project nothing would have changed cause he already left it. Instead he was most likely gonna leave the group...or well in short leave the wiki leave me all by myself once again, where he goes micah goes, so micah was going to leave the wiki and then leave me.
I know they all have a place, Aedhon, Almighty and Micah, they go somewhere when they don't wanna talk to me or hang out with me. Only time i can really get their full attention is when i make roleplays which is one of the reasons i like the roleplays because then i have their attention. but any other post I make, its most empty, a small response and most of the responses are me just talking to myself.
I am suppose to feel at fault, I made the situation to where it looked like I was the bad guy on purpose, i wanted to look like the bad guy so I never had to deal with the pain of being alone or left behind...it worked too well. I should not go back, its just a one sided friendship. but I rather have a one-sided friendship then be alone to be honest.
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De TodoI was first going to make this for someone special..., so in somewhat they wouldn't be alone when telling their feelings...I don't think they actually needs that from me though...but still I kind of also think this would help me out as well, especia...
