Criss- Crossed Love Affair (BokuAka)

Feelings

Bokuto's POV
We are gathered at Kuroo's house tonight.

The twins, Suna, Kuroo and I are gonna drink our hearts out here in Kuroo's abode... Why? We just feel like it...

and personally I would do this to escape from reality.

Atsumu got drunk so fast and is talking wildly with Suna. Osamu on the other hand tries to control Atsumu but failed multiple times. Suna just sighed in the corner.

Kuroo is a heavy drinker and I am just the average one. Honestly, I don't really want to drink but I am so tired of everything that is happening around me..

"Hey!! Remember... when you said I should look for a boyfriend, Samu?" Atsumu said while holding the bottle.

"Hmm.. Put it down, please, Tsumu..."

"I found one... I found someone... I like... He's so damn... cute... and hot... I thought I like girls but this... guy... is everything I ever wanted.... I'm gonna ask him... to go with me... in the festival... and confess to him..."

"You're so drunk, Tsumu.. Stop with this nonsense, okay" Osamu grabbed his twin's hand and hold a grip on the bottle, placed it down and smacked Atsumu in the head

"Hey.. That hurts, Samu! Why'd you stop me having a boyfriend? You have your own... so I guess it's fine if I have someone, too..." as he playfully wink at Suna.

Suna just flinched awkwardly.. Osamu furrowed his brows.

"And who the hell wants to be with you?!" Kuroo said loudly

"Well.. I'm gonna ask Akaashi to be my date on Friday!" Atsumu declared

My world seems to fall apart in front of me.. Akaashi? My Akaashi?

Wait.... That came out wrong even in my thoughts ..

"YOU MEAN KEIJI? KEIJI AKAASHI!?" Kuroo widen his eyes in terror.

"Definitely!" Atsumu responded quickly.

"No, Tsumu.. You can't do that.. they just broke up!!! Dating rules.. don't forget that..." Osamu lectured.

"And how would he move on if he keeps... clinging into.. the past, Osamu?"

They kept arguing.. Kuroo's also sharing his opinion as I kept quiet... They are talking about their break up and the reasons..

All I heard are random words like stalker, letters, gifts...

They broke up... That's why he's so different... He's hurt... It hurts me too...

I wanted to be with him... My lungs tightened... I... I want to help him forget and move on...

But Atsumu aims the same way... When will I ever get my chance then? I sighed deeply as I realized that Kuroo and Atsumu sleeping on the couch as Osamu and Suna are leaning on each other sharing the same blanket.

I spaced out for quite a long time I guess. I grabbed some blankets and lay down in the futon next to the couch.

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I woke up at around 4am.. The room is dark and everyone is fast asleep.

I could feel something deep inside me shattered last night. Knowing the truth behind Akaashi's suffering, and Atsumu's feelings towards the guy.

I like Akaashi just like everyone else.. I like him since the day I set my eyes on him. He's a quiet one but his eyes are full of untold stories. He captivated me.

What am I feeling? Is this the same as Atsumu's? Is this the meaning of liking someone? I mean... I want to be his friend... But is that all that I ever wanted?