Criss- Crossed Love Affair (BokuAka)

Chapter 54

The drive home is painfully quiet. Akaashi haven't spoken any word since I picked him up from the beach resort 20-minutes away from Tokyo.

I asked him why he was there but he just looked at me and stared at the window of my car.

I buckled my seatbelt, but he remained quiet tracing the falling raindrops in the window of the car. I lean a little and buckled his seatbelt... he just looked at me and then looked away.

"Kaashi..." I whispered.

He is a kind of person who doesn't talk that much, but he's so different right now.

"Are... you.. okay, Akaashi?" I asked as I leaned on my car seat a little making myself comfortable before driving.

"Yeah..." and he stared at the windshield.

Something must have happened. I didn't ask anymore questions. When he's ready, he'll tell me, I know that. I just have to be patient... like how I waited for him....

It feels like the longest ride I ever had. I kept of glancing at him. He sometimes lean into the window and sigh, he fidgets his fingers after, and buckle and unbuckle the seatbelt... He is so tense right now.

I just realized to that we aren't moving... I slid down the side window and peek a little outside.

Traffic jam.
Akaashi, however, remained unfazed.

"Aka..ashi...." I stuttered.

He looked at me.
"What happened? You seem different. Is there any problem?" I asked as I hold his left hand a little tight.

He shook his head.
"I.. I don't want to talk about it right now.. I just want to go home, Bokuto- san." and he intertwined our fingers.

He is currently looking outside as we travel back to Asahi and Nishinoya's house is. I stopped in front of their house and let out a sigh.

He is still staring at nothingness and haven't noticed that we are already on the stop.

"Akaashi..."

He seems to be just pulled out into reality
"Yes, Bokuto-san?"

"We're here..." I replied.

He looked worried and shocked.
"I thought you'll gonna drop me off by my apartment, Bokuto-san?!"

"We have... something for you."

"What?"

He was about to open the car door when I stopped him.
"Wait, Kaashi..."

"Yes, Bokuto-san?"

I caressed his cheeks and give him a peck on the lips.
"Happy Birthday"

His eyes widen. I plan to just keep it that way but he pulled me into a kiss. He's kissing me like there's no tomorrow .... It's not like him to do such thing.

His hands travel all over my arms and my clothes... He slowly removed my suit as he continued kissing me. He breaks the kiss for air... as he removes my necktie using his slim fingers.

He bits his bottom lip while looking at me.. I couldn't resist his gaze... I grab him and put my hand behind his head and pull him and his hair once in a while as we continue making out...

It doesn't feel like him.... It feels different and desperate. He unbuttoned my shirt already, and I rummaged his black soft hair.

I break our kiss just to see him crying. He is crying like he bottled up all his emotions and it bursted out..

I worriedly touched his cheeks with my palms.
"Akaashi, hey... What's wrong? Look at me... Tell me... What's going on?"

He sniffed and leaned his head into my chest. I rubbed his back trying to comfort him

"I'm not gonna ask more questions, okay? I'll wait until you're ready..." I said as I kissed the top of his head.

I dressed myself again and comforted him.
We stayed in the car for almost 15 minutes before we decided to go down and went to Asahi and Noya's house.

His eyes are little red but he seems more relaxed right now than earlier.

As he opened the door, everyone is waiting.. All smiles and cheers...

He looked surprised and teary- eyed.

I stepped a little and get the bouquet from a hiding spot I prepared earlier.
"Kaashi..." he turned around to see me holding a beautiful bunch of flowers.

"I thought.... You're all have plans..." he said almost crying.

"Yeah, plans to surprise you..." Suga winks.

Akaashi smiled brightly but his eyes says otherwise. No one says a word about it but I know they have noticed it.

This is supposed to be a surprised birthday party for him. We all agreed not to greet him and refuse his invitation. But I guess it was a really wrong move.

Something happened, and he doesn't want to tell it to anyone yet.

I've been keeping my eyes on him. He's smiling right now... He's faking it I know.

"Bo, what happened?" Suga asked as they, Osamu, Asahi, and Daichi, approached me in the kitchen.

"He... He didn't tell me anything... He isn't ready yet, and I don't want to pressure him..."

"Right. Okay... So... Are you planning to do it now?"

I gulped.
"Is it the right time?" I asked nervously

"This would probably be the best time to do that" Daichi said as everyone else nodded.

"Okay..." I nervously clenched my fist.. "I can do it!"

I relaxed my tensioned body as I approached Kaashi and Noya while they are talking in the couch.

When Noya saw me, his eyes sparkled as he run towards the kitchen where everyone were hiding

Akaashi just noticed that it's just me and him in the living room.

"A... Akaa... Akaashi..." I said as I walk near him..

"What is it, Bokuto-san?"

"I... I just.. want..to tell you something..." I stuttered badly.

"What is it?" he looked me in the eye..

I froze up. I run out of words... I couldn't.... do it... NO! I HAVE TO DO IT ..

He worriedly stood and place his palm into my forehead.

"Are you sick?"

I held his hand which is in forehead and shouted
"WILL YOU PLEASE BE MINE?!"

He blinked few times and stare at me. I put our hands down to the side and I closed my eyes tightly...

This is far from Kenma's.... No... No... No....

I suddenly felt his breathing near my ear. I opened my eyes just to see him leaning into my side

"I'm always yours, Bokuto-san... I love you ...."

I blushed .... this isn't fair!! He should be the one to blush not me... But I can't help it...

Damn..

I pulled him into a tight hug. Just then everyone cheered as they walk to the living room.

When we separated from the embrace, he is indeed smiling but his eyes are lonely.

I promise, I'll make you happier... and be real happy, Akaashi.