Criss- Crossed Love Affair (BokuAka)

Fall for You

Everyday seems to be a brand new adventure as I started tutoring Bokuto-san.

Dealing with his mood swings and tantrums are epic. Kuroo-san oftentimes praise me for "controlling" the goofball" in the form of Kōtarō Bokuto...

Noya and I have been busy with our obligations that we only see each other in class, but both of them, Noya and Asahi, usually call at night to have some chit chats.. It is really fun and I miss spending so much time with them.

Since then, I started to hang out with Bokuto-san more... The more I get closer to him, to more I get to know him.

We usually hang out after class and after tutorial in Kuroo-san's house, together with the Miya twins and Suna.

"Anyways.. where's Atsumu?" I asked as I noticed that he wasn't in the living room.

"Oh, do you miss me already, Akaashi?" Atsumu said as he walked from the balcony and winking at me.

Bokuto-san pouted and Kuroo-san smirked.

"Ah... No. I am just wondering."

"Oh.. You know I am busy with Omi- Omi because-" he was stopped by Osamu.

"Atsumu fell in love with that Omi- Omi"

Atsumu blushed so much that he started punching Osamu.

"Stop embarrassing me, Samu!"

"You don't need me to do that, Tsumu!!! Just admit it!!! You like that Omi- Omi of yours! As if he's real!!!!"

"He is real! You jackass! Akaashi knows him!"

"Hah?"

"Sakusa Kiyoomi is real, right Akaashi?!"

Where did I hear that name again?

Punch here. Kick there... Smack everywhere.

No one in their circle of friends are stopping them even Suna who is currently eating some onigiri... Bokuto-san and Kuroo-san are just casually talking in the side about things..

Should I stop them? I stood up planning to stop the commotion, when Suna looked at me and said
"They are always like that, let them be, Akaashi.. They never grow up... They'll probably stop later..."

So I sat down, and looked at the notebooks scattered in the table. We just finished studying for a major exam for tomorrow and Bokuto-san really understand the lesson. I hope he'll do the same thing in the exam proper.

We stayed the night at Kuroo-san's big house. We used their guest rooms.. It's way bigger than my apartment... I hated rich people for some time, without realizing that I'll be spending most of my time with them.

They are good people, I can at least say that. I am very wrong to judge them based on their financial status.

I stare at the ceiling as I lay in bed. The bed is so soft but I am uncomfortable and I can't sleep.

I slowly closed my eyes just to open them again after I heard someone opening the door.

I sat up to see Bokuto-san..
"Bokuto-san, why are you still up? It's already (checked my phone) 10:34pm. You better sleep now."

"I'm nervous, Kaashi.. What if I fail...."

"You'll fail if you keep attracting negative thoughts.." I said.

"But... Akaashi... I..." he closed the door and sat on the floor sulking. This isn't good.

I stood up and sat in front of him.
"You can't sleep? You can stay with me, I can't sleep either..."

"You mean it, Kaashi.?"

"Of course.. Come on..."

"But, can you at least show me how to balance equation again before we sleep?" he asked

Wow. This is new.

"Okay."

I turned on the lights and we place his notes on the top of a small table in the middle of the room.

"Okay, so..." I explained to him the details and he just listened vigorously.

"Can you give some items I could try answering?" he asked

What did this guy eat? He usually says he doesn't like solving anything... But, now he is so eager...

"You are so eager today, Bokuto-san..." I commented as I wrote down some equation in the paper.

"I want to prove to my father that I can also be better..." he said seriously.. "And ...."

"And what?" I asked

"And impress someone special..." he said as he took the paper and started answering.

Impress someone, huh... I felt a sudden pain within me ... What is this strange feeling I'm having each time he mentions that special someone of his?!

I took a novel from my bag and started reading.

"I'll just lay here in the couch while I am waiting for your answers, okay?"

"Mmmhmmm ..."

Bokuto's POV
I have been trying to answer this items for quite some time now... I know I get this lesson. Akaashi is amazing in tutoring me... Slowly my grades are getting better since we started.

I really hope I can perform well tomorrow..

"Kaashi, I'm-" I stood up and looked at Akaashi sleeping on the couch, the book is in his chest.

"done.."

Oh... he fell asleep. I carefully took the book and placed it in the table.

I stood there staring at his beautiful face. I am attracted to him, I know that .... I just can't.... I can't tell him though..

I kneeled down and leaned a little as I caress his face... He suddenly moved so I withdraw my hands..

"Ken.. Kenma..."

I froze. My arms slumped down and I turned my body into the opposite direction from Akaashi.

I buried my face into my knees as tears continue to flow over.

Why does it hurt? He doesn't intentionally hurts me, but.. It feels painful.... Why can't he just fall for me the way I fell for him?!?

I continued sobbing until I started to doze off.