To the One I Loved

Chapter Eighteen: I'm not Dreaming

As soon as I'd called for a nurse, one appeared. "What's wrong?" She asked, rushing in.

"Nothing," I said, "everything's fine. Everything's more than fine! She talked!" I told the nurse. The nurse walked over to Nina. She checked her pulse and was checking the monitor for any signs of difference.

"Nothing has seemed to change, but her heart is beating more alive," the nurse said.

"She was awake," I said, "she talked to me." The nurse stood there for a moment, looking at me.

Then she shook her head, "I'm sorry, but no. She's not designated to wake up for another 46 hours. Did you fall asleep? Maybe you dreamt it."

I shook my head, "No, I'm not dreaming. She was awake. She talked to me," I said.

"Sir, in difficult times like this, dreams and hallucinations could be played in the mind of those dear to the patient," she responded, "I'm sorry but that's almost impossible. Especially with the medicine she's under."

Then the nurse walked out. Wow. I can't believe she doesn't believe me. I walk back over to Nina and take her once again motionless hand. "You were there," I said. "Weren't you." There was no response.

I sat back down in the chair and opened the notebook to the third page. "Would you like to here some more?" I asked. I still waited for a reply knowing that one wouldn't come.

"Okay," I said, inhaling a deep breath, "Dear Alex, hi. So, this is my second letter. Can you guess when I'm writing this? No? Okay. I'll tell you. Today is Friday, September 8th. The day you, me, and Beth went to that party. Also known as the night I almost lost my virginity.

Looking back to earlier, I'm glad we didn't do it. I want my first time to be special, more than just us being drunk and doing what people are obligated to do at parties.

I'm actually still pretty wasted, but I don't think Beth's mom cares. I mean seriously, you're asleep on the couch downstairs and Beth and I are sprawled across the floor.

Her mom is like coolest mom in the history of teens, well, at least to my knowledge." I stop reading for a moment. Nina doesn't know. Beth's mom is a bitch. She used to hit Beth all of the time, but when Beth and I first started dating, I went with her to confront her mom.