To the One I Loved

Chapter Thirty-One: Changes

Alex's POV:
It's been three months since we told our parents and one since Nina and I both started being homeschooled.

My mom got her schuedle changed to night hours so that she can school me during the day, and Nina's dad has a half-time job as an accounant at some bank.

Nina is five months pregnant. Her stomach is now five inches wide. She was so skinny before, that she has barely gained that much wait as fast as some people would have.

The great part about homeschooling, though is that we only have to go through four straight hours of class, and we spend the rest of the hanging out, and the afternoons watching Angie.

We mostly have to watch her because our parents want us to know the kind of responsibility it takes to watch a child.

Today is Friday, March 25, 2016. Nina and I have to go to a doctors appointment. We're supposed to go for a sonogram, but Nina's main cancer doctor, wanted to check on her cancer and how it could affect the baby.

I walk into Nina's house. They say I don't have to knock anymore, just come in. Same rules apply for their family. I know our parents remember every single thing, but our family has grown so close in just eight short months, and a lot has happened.

No one's in the living room, first dining room, or kitchen. "Hey," I called out. "Anyone home?" I heard someone coming down the stairs from the kitchen.

"Hey," Nina said, "I'm home." Then she met me in the living room. She wrapped her arms around her neck, pulling me closer and our lips connected.

"It's 2:15," I said. "The appointment's at 3, do you want to leave now, or are we waiting for Joan?"

She nodded. "Yeah, my parents said they should both be here by 2:30. My dad went to the grocery store, and my mom didn't even have work today, I think she might've went shopping." I nodded in agreement.

There was a brief moment of silence and then Nina gasped. "What?" I asked. "What is it? Are you okay?"

"Yeah, calm down," she giggled. She took my hand and placed it on her stomach. "The baby is kicking."

"Wow," I said. I could feel a pounding against our stomach. "Does it hurt?" I asked. She shook her head.

"No, not at all," she responded, "It actually kind of tickles, a little." I laughed. Then it stopped. "That was funny," she said.

"Yeah," I said. "Well, get your purse and don't forget your phone. And I can use your computer really quick?" I ask. She nods. I want to go check the website my mom told me about. They were thinking that in a year or two, after I turn eighteen, that Nina and I could live in an apartment togther and raise our child.

I head upstairs to Nina's room. Her laptop is sitting on her bed as if it was just being used. I knew her password to log on, but my suspicion's were right I didn't have to sign in. Someone, like Nina, had already been on it earlier. It opened to a word document. What was this?

I started to read the first two words. Dear Alex. Then Nina walked in. "Hey, um,--" But I didn't let her finish.

"Are you writing them again?" I asked, "Do you really think that if you're healthy enough to be pregnant you're still going to die?" I couldn't believe this. She was healthy. She was pregnant for heavens sake and all she could think about was her own death, when she would be giving life soon.

"No, Alex," she said. "It's just, I still have cancer, what if it comes back after the baby is born, there are things I want you and our child to know, that I wasn't just going to leave you behind without saying goodbye. That's all."

"How many more are there?" I asked. She walked over to her bed, pulled a shoebox from underneath and set it on the bed next to me. Then she took control of the mouse and led to her files.

"There's the ones I already gave you plus one new one in this box," she said. "And one and a half on here." She pointed to the two files they were in. "Read them if you want. I don't care. Just don't get pissed with me Alex, I'm only telling you the truth. I'm going to die before you even get the chance to live throughout you're twenties." Then she walked out of the room.

I sat in silence. I didn't want to upset her, but she known how these letters make me feel. But I guess most of her reasoning behind it is true and is for the best. So I go through the letters in the box until I get to the one I haven't read.

Dear Alex,

Hey, I know I promised I wouldn't write these again, but we just had sex for the first time. You got to admit, that's pretty special. Alex, I love you so much. And I don't want to ever lose you or you lose me, but we all know that the future is not in our control.

I just wanted to tell you that last night was amazing. I was with you completely, and it made me feel like maybe there is more to life than just living before you die. You showed me that love can be on the brink of death or the brink of life.

When I was in the hospital, you were right by my side. And I know you always will be. So thank you, Alex, for being there for me and for loving me beyond all compare. This isn't a long letter. I just wanted to say thank you for everything. For just being in my life. And giving me that awful feeling of butterflies in my stomach.

With love,

        Nina.

Then I was done. It wasn't a long letter, but the letter made me realize how much of a jerk I had just been to Nina. I go downstairs. Nina is sitting on the couch with the remote in her hand. "Hey," I said.

"Hey," she replied.

"What're you watching?" She clicked the tv off.

"Nothing," she said. Then I went and sat down next to her. I took her arm, pulling her off of the couch and onto my lap. "Alex, I'm going to break you. I'm five months pregnant and have been eating four meals a day!"

"It's okay," I replied, "I'm a big boy. I can handle it." She dropped her head and laughed at this.

"Whatever," she said. Then I laughed too. Nina's laugh was almost as contagious as Tyler Oakley's. He's one of Nina's favorite youtubers.

"I love you," I said.

"I know," she replied.

"Oh that's all I get?" She laughed, nodding.

"Yeah, since you were such an ass!"

"Yeah, well I guess I deserve that, but I also deserve to be loved." I poked my cheek indicating for her to give me a kiss.

"Yeah, I guess you are pretty awesome," she said pecking me on the cheek. Then her phone buzzed. She took a minute to read the message she just recieved. "But it's 2:30, we have to go, and my parents will meet us there." Then she grabbed her purse, stuffing her phone inside.

She grabbed my keys from the side coffee table, handing them to me and headed out of the door. I locked up the house and followed her outside.

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