Too Good For You

thirty one

Billie
February 28th, 2021

Dear Bunny,

This was such a cute idea! You really are turning into a romantic huh? I think it's beautiful that even while you're away you're thinking of how to make me smile.

That shows that you really care about me and this relationship. You don't know how assured that makes me feel.

Also, why does you calling me good girl even on paper do things to me? It should be a crime how you make me feel with and without words. You send me into another dimension with just your eyes. How do you do that? I think you put me under a spell. I'm not mad at you for it. I enjoy being cosmically, spiritually, emotionally and physically intertwined with you. I love you and I can't wait to see you.

It's only been a few hours since I've last kissed you to the point that I'm dreaming of your lips. I'm licking mine right now.

I chuckle, picturing her licking her lips and continue to read.

Ugh I miss you baby! I'm happy you're getting time away but I can't wait to hold you.

Well anyways, I'll let you go now. I can't wait to read the next letter.

I love you to the moon. Do you love me the rest of the way back?

P.S., Once these 5 or so months are over I'm eating your ass on your balcony.

P.P.S. Check the envelope for a surprise.

I grab the envelope and pull out two polaroids. I smile seeing the first one is one of her smiling then I flip to the second and nearly choke at the picture. It was perfectly angled to show her new nipple rings. I slip both of them back into the envelope and place the letter in the drawer of my desk.

I pull out some paper along with an envelope to write her letter. I'm not at all surprised that she's went along with this. She's a hopeless romantic on the sly and swoons whenever I do something special for her.

I can genuinely say that my love for her has grown way past than I thought it would. If I was impulsive I'd flee the country and marry her. Never to be seen again. I'd leave my fans with two albums and wonder. I'd grow old with her on a farm with stray cats and maybe two adopted children.

I'd never in a million years think of living on a farm before but if she's there I'm there. Wherever she is I want to be.

I scribble on the paper with a sneaky smile on my face. Similar to the one I'd seen on hers yesterday over the phone. It's as if I didn't just see her the other day but to me her skin was glowing. She looked extremely well rested and just ethereal.

I know it's probably stupid but my heart stops when I see her. It's never done that before. Maybe a little flutter or a skip of a beat but a full on stop? Fuck, I'm deeply in love with her. I mean deep.

"Knock knock." I look up seeing Claudia, a sleeping Henry and my brother in the doorway of my office with smiles.

This week they'd asked me to babysit Henry so they can go on a trip. I'd managed to do a shit ton yesterday and freed myself a few days. I of course won't be telling Sada this because we both deserve alone time. I know she won't admit this but she's been enjoying being alone. I see it in her eyes when I'm leaving or when she leaves me. I know she longs for me to stay but she's not saddened when I go.

"What are you doing?" Finneas asks peeking over my shoulder but I quickly flip the paper over.

"Writing a letter— a private one." I shoo him away and Claudia squeals immediately getting the hint. I groan covering my ears at the obnoxious noise.