tipsy (ymir x reader)

3. mencía

"My father didn't send me," I paused, putting on a brave face, "I came alone- I have a proposition-"

"You'll have to get in line then," she frowned, her cold gaze leveled on my face. "I know for a fact you didn't come alone, you and your friends came running all the way down from that cushy mansion of yours."

ok well you aren't wrong but they abandoned me as soon as they got a chance so idk if i count them as friends rn

"The reason I need to talk to you is about that 'cushy mansion' of mine," her eyes flashed with curiosity at my words.

ANYWAY IT'S NOT REALLY MY MANSION

AND IM ON THE VERGE OF BEING KICKED OUT

WHICH IS WHY IVE BEEN WAITING FOR YOU

"What did I say?" A teasing edge filled her tone, "you'll have to wait in line."

PLEASE ...

IVE BEEN WAITING FOR SIX MONTHS

DON'T DO THIS TO ME

"Sorry Y/N," Connie shot me a pitying look, "you've been waiting for a while now- what's a couple more minutes?"

HELL CONNIE ...

"My life," I muttered dramatically, before turning to call after the Captain's receding back, "how long will you be?"

"For you?" She glanced over her shoulder, "come back in a week if you really care." With that, she disappeared below deck.

that was not how that was supposed to go...

by now this has likely reached the ears of everyone in town-

dear lord

LEVI AND ERWIN WERE WATCHING

THEY'RE NEVER GOING TO LET THIS GO

MORE IMPORTANTLY

MY LIFE IS ON THE LINE AND I HAVE TO WAIT ANOTHER WEEK ??

BULLSHIT-

LANGUAGE

"That was pathetic," Levi muttered the three of us now well on our way home. The walk home, which had gone by in a flash earlier, seemed to stretch on for miles- the winding cobblestone roads had never felt so daunting in my life. A similar winding sense of dread had settled in my gut.

my father is going to say something about this when i get back-

"Please don't remind me."

"I would ask if you want to come over for dinner but I'm guessing that's out of the question," Erwin tried to lighten the mood a little bit.

"I'm going to wallow at home for at least another week."

tell your cook that i miss her cooking though

"Hey, you look like shit, stop it," Levi nudged me in the ribs.

"Oh wow I suddenly feel so much better!"

"You know what I mean- you waited six months for this, it's not like you to give up so easily," Levi rolled his eyes.

"I can't help it- she practically told me no-"

"She didn't tell you no- she just told you to wait a week," Erwin reminded me.

LISTEN I DON'T THINK SHE'S GOING TO TAKE ME SERIOUSLY

EARLIER I WAS GLOATING BC MY SOUL WASN'T CRUSHED BUT NOW-

LEVI WAS RIGHT- AND I HATE THAT

"I just-"

"Stop complaining and think about a solution-" Erwin patted my head, the three of us had reached my front door.

"Let us know what you've figured out tomorrow," Levi waved goodbye.

"I NEVER AGREED TO DOING ANYTHING!" I shouted- the two of them cut me off- forcing me inside and shutting the door.

they suck-

I glanced around, at a first glance it looked like no one else was in the house, I decided not to risk running into anyone who had heard of my public embarrassment from earlier and ran straight to my room. Taking refuge in bed I began to recount what had happened in my head.

literally how awful is it that part of the reason why she won't take me seriously is because of my father-

WHEN I NEED TO TALK TO HER BECAUSE I'M TRYING TO PROVE A POINT TO MY FATHER

HHHH

would anything change if she knew that?

part of me doubts it-

what do i have to do to prove that im worth her time

honestly, this is something i should've been thinking about way before

everything about this is difficult

i don't hate my father

it's not that i wasn't raised without love but i think that it's that same love that forces me into this situation now

he's worried about what will happen to me

BUT I DON'T NEED TO GET MARRIED TO A MAN BC YOU'RE WORRIED

AND I CERTAINLY DON'T NEED TO FORGIVE YOU FOR BEING UNWILLING TO LISTEN TO MY OPINION ON THE IRREVERSIBLE THINGS YOU'RE DOING TO MY FUTURE

maybe the 'captain' would get that

it's not like you see a female captain with that much influence everyday

but her perception of my father is making it difficult for me to even explain myself

it's irritating more than anything

I sighed loudly, my gaze wandering to the window, watching as the sun began to dip below the horizon I was eagerly watching earlier.

levi's right though it's not like me to give up like this

but im not sure what i can do- other than wait the week out

i get the feeling that she might brush me off again

My mind wandered to the busy docks- I imagined them slowly clearing of people as they headed back to their homes and ships. A significant portion of them probably found their way to some local tavern to celebrate and drink til dawn-

WAIT

A TAVERN

IT'S NOT SOMEWHERE I WOULD USUALLY BE SEEN BUT-

THERE'S A GOOD CHANCE THAT I CAN SEE HER THERE

EVEN IF IT'S FOR A BRIEF MOMENT IT'S STILL A CHANCE

I shot up in bed glancing at my reflection in the mirror.

i didn't really want to go to dinner anyway-

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writing ymir is hard for me only bc i don't think im writing her as hot as i can and that needs to change

- ami