Later that night I couldn't help but feel uncomfortable lying next to Ymir.
i could go sleep on one of the armchairs in the office
she would definitely realize that something is wrong
it'll cause the least harm if i just stay here
but i can't sleep
i really can't
this is going to be the end of me
no it won't
ARE YOU SURE ??
y/n- you bounce back from everything
"Are you still awake?" Ymir murmured under her breath.
THAT SCARED ME
ERHM
SHOULD I PRETEND TO BE ??
"No?" She shifted around in bed.
i guess i have to pretend now
"It's going to be really fucking embarrassing for me if you're still awake so I hope you're sleeping."
about that
"I don't-" she stopped speaking as if listening to the sound of my breathing. "You're awake, aren't you?"
HOW DID SHE KNOW
"No need to keep pretending- I can tell."
what should i say
"I was trying to sleep," I grumbled, rolling over to face her.
that was a little mean
"Oh, I'm sorry for bothering you," a heavy silence fell between us once more.
you weren't
i'm sorry
i'm the one who's lying
"You-" her voice hitched in her throat, "you weren't really trying to sleep, were you?"
yeah
"I-"
"No need to explain. Hey Y/N?"
"Yes?"
"Did you not like our date?"
i did- i really did
but
would it make it easier if i said that i didn't?
"I liked it, I liked it a lot."
i'm too selfish of a person to push her away like that
"Oh good, I was worried that you were uncomfortable at the end- you kinda ran off on me."
"I told you I was tired."
"Tired enough to do work with Armin? I was thinking about a lot of things- it was helpful to have something to do."
a half truth
"I want you to- fuck-"
"You want me to what?" My eyes flew open.
"That sounded bad- that's not what I meant-" Ymir quickly backtracked. "I want you to feel comfortable talking to me about whatever's on your mind."
you're on my mind
"It's really nothing to worry about-"
"It is, to me anyway, you're worried about it so I want to help."
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tipsy (ymir x reader)
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