Reassurance.

chapter thirty nine.

Two days passed and I continued roaming round college like a zombie. The girls continued worrying but I didnt even know what was wrong with me.

I went to college, barely spoke, fell asleep during lessons and then went straight home, falling asleep again.

Another day later and I woke early. My alarm clock displayed 6:52 and Jamie was still sound asleep next to me.

"Why am I awake?" I mummbled to myself. I sat up in bed and suddenly a wave of nausea hit me. I was going to be sick.

I got out of bed as quickly but as carefully as I could and ran into my en suite. I leant over the edge of the toilet and emptied the contents of my stomach into it. I carried on like this for minutes until I could produce no more vomit.

I sat there, sweating unattractively with my head reasting on the side of the toilet seat. I felt Jamies hand rubbing my back.

"Whats wrong with you gorgeous?"

"I dont know" I groaned. He handed me a glass of water and I drank quickly, eager to get rid of the taste of vomit.

"Woah, slow down otherwise your going to-" Jamie started to talk but I interrupted him by throwing up again.

"Throw up again." Jamie sighed, finishing his earlier sentence. He pulled my hair from my face and held it into a ponytail.

"Youre not going to college today and im staying home with you."

I nodded as I finally stopped being sick and he helped me up. He ran me a bath as I brushed my teeth and got rid of the taste. Then he helped to undress me and I lowered myself into the bath.

It was so relaxing.

"Is this what usually happens?" Jamie asked me. I was confused.

"What are you on about?" I asked him.

"When youre on your period. Are you usually sick like this? You know where youre in so much pain that you have to throw up?" He asked me awkardly, he hated this conversation topic.

"Im not on my period Jamie." I snapped back at him. Then it hit me.

"Oh my god! Get my calandar!" I shouted at Jamie. He jumped up and ran to my bedroom. Returning with my Keith Lemon calandar. He held it infront of my face as I counted the days from the 12th where the big red cross was marked.

"Its the 17th today, right?" I asked Jamie. Not wanting to actually know the answer. He nodded and I buried my face in my hands.

"Shit. shit. shit" I repeated.

Jamie tried to pry my hands away from my face and eventually I let him.

"Zara, what is going on with you? Please tell me and ill be able to help you. You should never feel ashamed around me, come on. Just tell me whats bothering you?"

I looked up at him and swallowed hard. I cant  beleive I was actually about to say this out loud. I barely beleived it.