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lies || i.kurokawa x reader x m.sano

Hi loves!!! This is going to be my last thing I write before I post some Halloween stuff~ I'm so so so so excited!!!!!
I honestly hope I can go to one of those haunted houses...event though I'm a scaredy cat....

Anyways, I hope you're all doing well and enjoy some angst! Also, reader is gender neutral!

tw: cursing, cheating, mentions of self harm, and depression.

guilty.

You felt guilty as you kissed the white-haired males' neck, his larger hands softly running through your smooth hair, tugging at it when you hit a sensitive spot.

You felt guilty every time you told him " I love you" because you knew it was just another lie you told him to satisfy him.

And it made you feel guilty every single time you'd press your lips against his, knowing that in just a few hours, you'd be pressing your lips against another's....

It hurt you every time you did it, every time you betrayed him, but you simply couldn't stop yourself. The other blonde-haired male was just so addicting.

He made you feel a way you had never felt before, he warmed you in a way no one else could, he touched you in a way that was so addicting that you couldn't resist it. You couldn't resist him.

You could never resist meeting him by the river each night and burying yourself deep into his comforting arms. The feeling of his lips passionately pressing against yours was something you loved all too much.

And you longed to hear the black-eyed gang leader say "I love you" again, like he did every night before you returned to your own home...and eventually, back to your boyfriend.

The need to be with Mikey was so large. You desperately wanted to openly love him, and him, you, but the idea of leaving your own boyfriend, Izana, was too much for you.... And that was because you knew the consequences of your horrible actions, and they certainly weren't good.

If only your past self hadn't been such a stupid liar, because if you weren't, you wouldn't be in this position...

You see, when Izana told you he loved you for the first time, you didn't want to lie to him and say it back. You didn't want to be the one he loved,
let alone the one he longed for, but the look in his eyes stopped you from telling him the truth. And because of that, you ended up, instead lying to him and told him "I love you too".

And the moment you did, his purple eyes lit up in a way you had never seen before. They changed from a lonely dull purple to a bright shiny purple, one that showed his true happiness. He himself, became a nicer, happier person when he started dating you, and you couldn't stand to shatter that.

Your lies may have brought him the happiness he deserved but cost of it was ruining your life, and probably his in the future. You were aware of this, and hated that truth, but you still couldn't break it off with him. The idea of him reverting to his lonely, crazy, cold self, terrified you, so much so that you stayed with him...

You stayed with him despite your guilt and hatred you harbored towards yourself.

And the only cure to those horrible feelings was the man you cheated on Izana with....the very same one that continued to stay with you despite knowing what he was doing too.

The very same one that, also, couldn't give you up.

In the end, you never broke it off with Izana. You continued staying with the white-haired male in the day, doing all the things that kept him happy, satisfying him in ways only you could, and giving him the love, he needed.