Mate in You

I Want to be Loved

I miss u. I miss everything.
I want you to be happy.
I hope, you'll find some lovely accomplished girl, who will adore you, and make a fine mistress for your fine house.
But... honestly, I want to be that girl.
I will care for you, and I'll love you tremendously, and live and die for you. I know I will.
But, I'm homely and awkward and odd and you'd be ashamed of me.
So if I were a girl in a book, this would all be so easy.
And I knew I was nobody to wish for something as beautiful as that.
I know, but still... I'm angry nearly every day of my life.
I've made so many resolutions and written sad notes, but it just doesn't seem to help.

I love you, so much. So so much.
But, honestly... I care more to be loved. I want to be loved.
And I know that's not the same as loving.

I fell in love. With you.
Repeatedly.
Every single day.

And... I'm greedy.