Larsadie

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(((A/N: I RECOMMEND LISTENING TO 'A LITTLE TOO MUCH' BY SHAWN MENDES WHILE READING SADIES POV!! IT GOT ME A BIT TEARY EYED ;'3 ANYWAY, THAT'S ALL I WANTED TO SAY X3 ~Eas_As_123)))

Sadie POV

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        As I slowly open my eyes to the morning light, I don't feel the same happy feeling. An odd gut feeling hangs onto me and I don't like it. I'm starting the day, feeling like something or even anything is going to go wrong. A feeling I haven't felt in forever.

        I feel like tears might be flowing today

        Sitting up, I start to get dressed, and the feeling stays. Opening my door, I walk down stairs and eat an apple, because of my diet, and still the feeling stays. I throw the apple core away and grab my coat and open the front door, and a light breeze brushes against my face, and I step out. For some reason, I already feel like hiding in my shell.

        What is going on today.

        Like every morning, I start to walk to work and I just try to go into my thoughts.

        I can't believe I'm sixteen already

        I can't believe I have my first boyfriend

        I can't believe...

        All I've done for this.

        "Sadie?" I hear a voice say and I blink back into reality, and I see who it is, and it's Lars. He looks down at me confused, and I see I'm hugging him.

        "Oh- sorry." I let him go and he adjusts his hood. We start to walk together, and the feeling in my gut is worse. I look up at Lars as we walk, and he makes sure the hood is covering his face.

        "What are you doing?" I say to him, and he shrugs,

        "nothing." I feel myself say,

        "Tell me already Lars." He blinks in surprise.

        "What?"

        "Yeah- I said it. Why do you keep hiding yourself to me! I've told you things about me that I haven't told a single soul!" Lars lowers his eyebrows and snap,

        "So what? Just cause I don't want to open up, doesn't mean anything to you!" I feel something snap in myself.

        "Yes it does Lars! I've done so much for you-" As I keep going, gray clouds cover the sky, and small drops of rain start to fall.

        "I've risked my life to save your butt! I opened up to you, and I even forgave you so many times, I can't take it much longer!" My voice starts to waver and crack under the pressure. The middle of the road where we stand in seems to get closer to us and I feel myself shaky in the hands. "Why don't you just let me help you for once in your life! I loved you for so long! Am I just a stupid charity case to you!? Is that why you don't try like I do! Cause I am done trying to fake being happy! I've been so brave but now I'm terrified of everything, because I think I'm never good enough for my own boyfriend to open up to me like I do to him!!" As I breath heavily, as the tears get heavier to me. Lars isn't talking, so I just take it as he is agreeing with me. I turn my head and start to continue my walk to work, until I feel a firm hand on my wrist. I turn my head to Lars and snap at him once more, "What."

        "Sadie, I'm sorry." I look up at his eyes, and his lip is starting to quiver.

        "Oh please.." I say and try to get out of his arms, but he stills holds my wrist.