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Manny haven't tried reaching out to me since I ran out on him a few nights ago. That shit been eating me up to be honest. I didn't want to run out on him that shit just scared me. That man is everything I ever wanted and he loves my imperfect ass. Even though I'm crazy sometimes, I'm a bottle girl, I'm a single mother, I sometimes deal with depression, he love me.
Then it's like, I love him too. Every nigga I loved ain't love me and just hurt me, except for him.
I gotta make this shit right.
I got me and PaPa together then headed out. While I was driving I called my momma.
Momma:Hello? Me:Hey what you doing? Momma:Girl nothing about to take Manny some food and drop K'Monie off. What's up? Me:Oh he had to work last night? Momma:He said he had a double. I had my baby since yesterday. He called me this morning tired. I told him to just go home and get some sleep and I'll drop K'Monie off before my plans. Me:What you got planned? Momma:You in my business girl.
I laughed.
Me:I was gone say I could drop the food and K'Monie off. I was gone go talk to him. Momma:Okay that's fine. I'll see you in a little bit. Me:Okay.
...
While my momma was wrapping Manny plate her phone rang then mine did right away. We laughed then answered our phones. Khalid called me.
Me:Hello? Khalid:Where you at?
He sounds weird.
Me:My momma house what's wrong? Khalid:Manny got shot a few hours ago. Meet me at Columbia hospital now. Me:Oh my God what?! Is he ok?! Khalid:They didn't tell me shit just meet me there, he ain't got no family.
The phone hung up: my hearts pounding. "I-I gotta go momma.", I said standing up as my body shook.
"What's wrong? What happened?", she asked grabbing my hand.
"Manny got shot. I'm meeting Khalid at the hospital I gotta go.", I said running out the house.
...
I ran in the hospital looking for for Khalid but I didn't see him. I ran to the front desk. "I'm looking for Emanuel Smith.", I quickly said.
"Okay who are you?", the lady asked typing in the computer.
"I'm his sister."
"Room B287. Go straight down this hall and take elevator B to the second floor." I ran down the hall and got on elevator b. After what felt like forever I got to the second floor.
I read the signs on the wall and ran to his room.
My heart pounded as I ran down the hall reading the room numbers. As I got closer to his room it started to sink in.
This man just got shot, he could die. What if I never get a chance to tell him I love him too? All cause I let my fear get in my way.
I'll never see him again. I'll never be in his arms again. K'Monie won't have a daddy.
Tears were pouring from my eyes as I made it to his room. I ran in his room and saw him and Khalid laughing. They stopped and looked at me. "Y-You ok.", I said trying to catch my breath.
"I'm ok.", he said. I broke down. I really though he was gone. I felt arms guide me in more then I was softly pushed down onto the bed. Manny wrapped his arm around me. "I'm good stop crying please, ion like seeing you cry.", I heard Manny say by my ear.
I started coughing from crying so much. "Jaz calm down before they give yo' ass a room.", I heard Khalid say as my back was rubbed.
I got myself together as much as possible then looked at Manny. "I'm s-"
"Don't a-"
"No I need to say this, tomorrow isn't promised. Please just listen.", I said looking at him.
"Okay.", he nodded.
Khalid stood up and started leaving, "I'm fenna get me something from the food court I'll be back." We nodded. After the door closed behind him I exhaled and looked at Manny.
"I'm so sorry for leaving in a rush that night. You being a perfect man, a man I wished and prayed for, and loving me didn't sit right. It scared me, you loving me scared me. I felt it for a long time but you never said it. Every nigga-" Manny pulled me to him and kissed me cutting me off.
"I'm not every nigga, for the millionth time. I-"
"I love you too.", I said cutting him off. He sat back and looked at me. "I love K'Monie like she's my own. I thought you was dead and I didn't want you to die not knowing that I love you too. I promise I won't leave like that again and I'll start talking with you more and I'll be a better person, I just don't wanna lose you.", I cried.
"Stop crying.", he said wiping my tears. "You remember what I told you at the beach the one night after we left the club?" I shook my head as I sniffed. "I know this shit ain't easy but I'm down for this if you are. I meant that. I know you been hurt and it's hard to believe a nigga actually love you, but I love you baby you gotta believe me.", he said.
"I do, I love you too." I hugged him tight and he groaned in pain. I got off him. "Oh my god, where did you get shot? What happened? Are you ok?" He showed me his right shoulder, it's patched up. "Oh my god what happened?"
"I got hit by a stray when I was dropping this dude I work with off. I'm straight though."
"You wanna be my boyfriend? Like officially. I know we still gotta talk but can you be mine?" He smiled and nodded.
"Yeah. I want you to work on your mental though. You lovable, you deserve love. Stop thinking otherwise."
"Okay.", I said softly.
"Give me a kiss.", he said. I leaned over and kissed him.
